I've been with the same guy for three years and basically all of it was a lie because he lies all the time and he cheated so I don't know what he has done but hasn't told me and I think about it all the time. there is no way I can get over it because it has been so long and I havn't been able to get over it due to the fact I keep finding out about more lies and he keeps making more.. We have a six month old baby girl together and everytime I look at her I want to cry.. Not all the time but most of the time. The guy, the baby, and I, all live with my mom in a two bedroom apartment and she isn't supportive at all. Anytime I say he needs to sleep on the couch and that he can walk to work she tells me I'M THE MEAN one, even though he deserves it 100%. It's like everyone thinks I should let him walk all over me and treat me badly because my mom is always calling me a pain in the a** and everything. Even though we're broke up right now we still live together and he still gets in my face and kisses me and forces his kisses on me.. I honestly think they are gross ever since I found out he had sex with another girl..
The only way I feel that I can get away from everything is to just commit suicide and take all the pills inside my bathroom at once.. but when I think about this I cry because that would be leaving my daughter with her horrible father. I don't say he's horrible just because of how he has treated me but he ignores her and doesn't hold her like he should and things like that.. etc etc..
I don't know what to do..
The only way I feel that I can get away from everything is to just commit suicide and take all the pills inside my bathroom at once.. but when I think about this I cry because that would be leaving my daughter with her horrible father. I don't say he's horrible just because of how he has treated me but he ignores her and doesn't hold her like he should and things like that.. etc etc..
I don't know what to do..
"You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel."