Well, it's my senior year of high school next year. Ever since eighth grade, I told myself I would change year in and year out. I never have. It's just so hard to put myself out there and make myself someone. I joined two sports and worked very hard at them, striving to be the best. Despite this, I fell short, and this always depressed me.
I don't want to be the "quiet kid". I hate being that kid. Don't get me wrong, I have good friends and no one really hates me, but I feel like wallpaper. i Doubt myself alot and my self esteem is anything but high. Four years of weightlifting made me very strong, and I started loosing all the weight I held in elementary school in middle school. In middle school, I was not fat at all. Even now, I feel I am nowhere in the league of any of the girls I really like. Simple, I have some acne, but acne scars. I feel like I am really ugly. Girls have been interested in me, but none my type. Also, the huge teases that have boyfriends. This makes me sad.
I am alone most of the time at home, despite my friends. They are working, or for some reason can't hang. The others I am just to scared to ask. Afraid of coming off as weird. Which brings me back to the girl thing. I saw my friend become the school creep. I don't want that to happen to me but I don't know the wrong and right things to do. I need confidence and guidance. Should I make a facebook? I don't want to be the kid with like 4 friends on there.
I don't want to be the "quiet kid". I hate being that kid. Don't get me wrong, I have good friends and no one really hates me, but I feel like wallpaper. i Doubt myself alot and my self esteem is anything but high. Four years of weightlifting made me very strong, and I started loosing all the weight I held in elementary school in middle school. In middle school, I was not fat at all. Even now, I feel I am nowhere in the league of any of the girls I really like. Simple, I have some acne, but acne scars. I feel like I am really ugly. Girls have been interested in me, but none my type. Also, the huge teases that have boyfriends. This makes me sad.
I am alone most of the time at home, despite my friends. They are working, or for some reason can't hang. The others I am just to scared to ask. Afraid of coming off as weird. Which brings me back to the girl thing. I saw my friend become the school creep. I don't want that to happen to me but I don't know the wrong and right things to do. I need confidence and guidance. Should I make a facebook? I don't want to be the kid with like 4 friends on there.