I've always fancied boys such as celebs (johnny depp) etc but until lately I realised not in a sexual way just a hm they're good looking! I'm 19 years old

When I was 14 I had a massive crush on my teacher, female. I didn't realise it was a crush but I was pretty much obsessed with her, excited to go to her classes.. (This is a rare thing for me!) ... Then when I was 16 I had an even bigger crush on another woman.

I've put off having boyfriends cause i'm shy about it and felt embarrassed about it and I didn't know why. I currently have a boyfriend and hate doing stuff to his, private area. Ive recently noticed i've been imagining girls I find attractive whilst with him.

I have a headache from all of this, it's all I can think about! I love my boyfriend but I'm starting to wonder if I love him as a friend or what, I don't know. We have such a laugh I could never imagine being romantic with him, I believe he thinks this is just how I roll.

I don't want to be a lesbian haha that sounds immature but I don't, it would change everything. I'm not the stereotypical type of girl you'd expect to be gay.. I love fashion, I get on with girls and boys easily as friends, have long hair haha!

What do you think.... :S:(:(:(:(:(