Hi everyone!
Here's the main point of this post, so you know what you're reading :
So I've decided I'm dropping out. But my issue is this - my father paid for me to be at that college. And I completely blew it. I wasted his money. It makes me feel ashamed.
Now here's the story:
Graduated high school this year. Did not have plans to go to college, but decided at the last minute that I should give it a shot at least. So I started at a community college as a Music Performance student.
Another factor that ties in - I've gone in and out of a depression for a couple years. Been talked out of suicide, slowly getting better.
Anyway, halfway through the semester I phased out. I realized that I didn't want to be there in the first place. I figured I'd finish the semester, but feeling low combined with my lack of drive to be there caused my marks to crash way down.
Then I started feeling worse. And I started skipping classes. Then I'd skip whole days.
It's been over two weeks since I'd attended class. I only go to one - which is a private guitar instruction - which I love. Playing the guitar is literally my whole life.
So I've decided I'm dropping out. But my issue is this - my father paid for me to be at that college. And I completely blew it. It makes me feel ashamed.
I should note: I'm 18, professional musician, guitar instructor. My dream is a career performing music and it's going really great so far. So I'm not upset about flunking out of college, I'm just upset about what I've done with my father's money and don't know how to break it to him.
Thanks for your patience, guys.
Here's the main point of this post, so you know what you're reading :
So I've decided I'm dropping out. But my issue is this - my father paid for me to be at that college. And I completely blew it. I wasted his money. It makes me feel ashamed.
Now here's the story:
Graduated high school this year. Did not have plans to go to college, but decided at the last minute that I should give it a shot at least. So I started at a community college as a Music Performance student.
Another factor that ties in - I've gone in and out of a depression for a couple years. Been talked out of suicide, slowly getting better.
Anyway, halfway through the semester I phased out. I realized that I didn't want to be there in the first place. I figured I'd finish the semester, but feeling low combined with my lack of drive to be there caused my marks to crash way down.
Then I started feeling worse. And I started skipping classes. Then I'd skip whole days.
It's been over two weeks since I'd attended class. I only go to one - which is a private guitar instruction - which I love. Playing the guitar is literally my whole life.
So I've decided I'm dropping out. But my issue is this - my father paid for me to be at that college. And I completely blew it. It makes me feel ashamed.
I should note: I'm 18, professional musician, guitar instructor. My dream is a career performing music and it's going really great so far. So I'm not upset about flunking out of college, I'm just upset about what I've done with my father's money and don't know how to break it to him.
Thanks for your patience, guys.