I certainly think I do.
I feel like, with certain guys, I would ideally pursue some sort of intimate, brotherly affection. Sadly, I often feel that I second-guess myself into thinking that I'm just pursuing them for sex, deep down and unconsciously. This creates guilt and thus holds back my relationships in a way. The only reason I would doubt sexuality as a motive for becoming close with them is because I went that far with one guy (just trying it), and in all honesty, I regret the decision to this day. It was not pleasurable at all, and with that knowledge in mind, I am a little easier about getting close with people.
The same is true of certain girls, I think, only with the reverse -- I mistakenly see "love" while in reality it may just be sexuality. I tend to hold back with many women, and entering into a relationship is the hardest thing for me (I think that just has to do with my past, but I won't go into that. Long, boring story). When I do, it's just filled with butthurt, in a word. Thus, while engage in no female relationships anymore, I feel like at any point I might just go off on a tangent and express my sexuality with women, confusing it with short-lasting love. Of course, I haven't done that yet, and I'm sort of derailing this post...
Back on track, do you think that we, as teenagers, tend to confuse the two feelings of love and sexuality, usually by believing it's love when reality states sexuality and nothing more?
I feel like, with certain guys, I would ideally pursue some sort of intimate, brotherly affection. Sadly, I often feel that I second-guess myself into thinking that I'm just pursuing them for sex, deep down and unconsciously. This creates guilt and thus holds back my relationships in a way. The only reason I would doubt sexuality as a motive for becoming close with them is because I went that far with one guy (just trying it), and in all honesty, I regret the decision to this day. It was not pleasurable at all, and with that knowledge in mind, I am a little easier about getting close with people.
The same is true of certain girls, I think, only with the reverse -- I mistakenly see "love" while in reality it may just be sexuality. I tend to hold back with many women, and entering into a relationship is the hardest thing for me (I think that just has to do with my past, but I won't go into that. Long, boring story). When I do, it's just filled with butthurt, in a word. Thus, while engage in no female relationships anymore, I feel like at any point I might just go off on a tangent and express my sexuality with women, confusing it with short-lasting love. Of course, I haven't done that yet, and I'm sort of derailing this post...
Back on track, do you think that we, as teenagers, tend to confuse the two feelings of love and sexuality, usually by believing it's love when reality states sexuality and nothing more?
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