Ok so i'll just tell my problems really quick.
My parents are weird and strict. They act like they love me one minute then yell at me the next and i can't take it. Last year, I dated a guy for the first time even though I wasn't allowed to date. I didn't tell my parents and he didnt tell his. However, when he dumped me, I was having such anxiety that I spilled and told my mom. She freaked out on me. She was ready to kill me. Eventually We agreed that I would never do it again, although I didn't learn my lesson. This year I went out with another guy. Unfortunatly his mom found out. I was having such anxiety about it (because she might tell my mom) that I broke up with him I got a little more mature and finally said you know I cant do this in middle school its not right i betrayed my parents but i still cant tell them. However,even though he wasnt upset he completely understood, he said he cannot know for sure if his mom will keep it a secret that we dated. Now I'm constantly hanging around my mom and jumping when the phone rings and I'm ready to puke whenever my parents are having a serious comversation and I question them nonchalantly afterwords to try and figure out what its about and so far it hasnt been me. However Im always feeling horrible about myself but i dont have the guts to say anything and i know im such a bad person for doing it and i just started sneacking a razor in the bathroom and you can see where thats going so plz any suggestions? If someone could help me come up with some lies maybe to tell my mom if it ever comes up? I'm horrible but i'm desperate because I need to survive a couple more years with my parents before I can move out.
Plz help!!!!
~DepressedMusician
My parents are weird and strict. They act like they love me one minute then yell at me the next and i can't take it. Last year, I dated a guy for the first time even though I wasn't allowed to date. I didn't tell my parents and he didnt tell his. However, when he dumped me, I was having such anxiety that I spilled and told my mom. She freaked out on me. She was ready to kill me. Eventually We agreed that I would never do it again, although I didn't learn my lesson. This year I went out with another guy. Unfortunatly his mom found out. I was having such anxiety about it (because she might tell my mom) that I broke up with him I got a little more mature and finally said you know I cant do this in middle school its not right i betrayed my parents but i still cant tell them. However,even though he wasnt upset he completely understood, he said he cannot know for sure if his mom will keep it a secret that we dated. Now I'm constantly hanging around my mom and jumping when the phone rings and I'm ready to puke whenever my parents are having a serious comversation and I question them nonchalantly afterwords to try and figure out what its about and so far it hasnt been me. However Im always feeling horrible about myself but i dont have the guts to say anything and i know im such a bad person for doing it and i just started sneacking a razor in the bathroom and you can see where thats going so plz any suggestions? If someone could help me come up with some lies maybe to tell my mom if it ever comes up? I'm horrible but i'm desperate because I need to survive a couple more years with my parents before I can move out.
Plz help!!!!
~DepressedMusician