Idk what to do, i know im gay. But i also know why and thats my issue.
When i was little my moms then fiance raped me and lets his friends in exchange for drugs, he forced me to wear make up, and take videos. I feel like by being gay he will always have that, he'll always have changed me, and ruined me.
Idk i dont want him to have that power, that hold on me. A few of my friends know. My entire family is against gays. My cousin came out and they treat him like he has fucking ebola. I dont know, i just feel horrible and alone knowing my family hates what i am.
My friend that dont know always tease me, i have a lisp which makes me sound gay other then that they cant tell. They call me fag, cocksucker, make jokes abkut me drinking cum and catching dicks. They not trying to be rude, the just dont know how terrible it makes me feel, i hate it. Advice?
When i was little my moms then fiance raped me and lets his friends in exchange for drugs, he forced me to wear make up, and take videos. I feel like by being gay he will always have that, he'll always have changed me, and ruined me.
Idk i dont want him to have that power, that hold on me. A few of my friends know. My entire family is against gays. My cousin came out and they treat him like he has fucking ebola. I dont know, i just feel horrible and alone knowing my family hates what i am.
My friend that dont know always tease me, i have a lisp which makes me sound gay other then that they cant tell. They call me fag, cocksucker, make jokes abkut me drinking cum and catching dicks. They not trying to be rude, the just dont know how terrible it makes me feel, i hate it. Advice?
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