Dear Anyone.
Yes i want something
But believe me, it's the furthest thing from my mind.
I have always been a willful child.
i often think of myself as a foreigner: perfectly groomed aristocratic boy.
Who could play the part but... couldn’t quite understand the language.
Words had a different meaning to me.
Particularly the word "no".
"No" wasn’t a front.
"No" was a challenge.
-I was always victorious.
For a while.
I would bring you smiles.
Laughter.
I listened to all your problems
Understood them, tried and fix them ten times over
But my solutions were never good enough.
It gave me such pain, to be around you.
Whenever I would leave at night... i felt like I'd lost something.
The times you would say "no" to me... I accepted defeat...
And I dreaded it
Why did you make me feel so uneasy?
I always wondered why.
Yes i want something
But believe me, it's the furthest thing from my mind.
I have always been a willful child.
i often think of myself as a foreigner: perfectly groomed aristocratic boy.
Who could play the part but... couldn’t quite understand the language.
Words had a different meaning to me.
Particularly the word "no".
"No" wasn’t a front.
"No" was a challenge.
-I was always victorious.
For a while.
I would bring you smiles.
Laughter.
I listened to all your problems
Understood them, tried and fix them ten times over
But my solutions were never good enough.
It gave me such pain, to be around you.
Whenever I would leave at night... i felt like I'd lost something.
The times you would say "no" to me... I accepted defeat...
And I dreaded it
Why did you make me feel so uneasy?
I always wondered why.
6/5/16 - The date i became permanently in love