Hi! Im Noah. Im the middle child of my family. My older brother(I was born the next day technically, but he is only 8 minutes older. He always conveniently forgets that) and I are twins and my younger brother is 9. Our parents are in the middle of getting divorced and my dad is no longer living with us. This is enough to already blow up our lives but they are both fighting for custody of us which just leads to a lot of fighting whenever they see each other with us usually ending up dragged in the middle of it.
Before all of this our parents were great and life seemed ok(besides this global pandemic obviously) but now they just tell so many lies about each other and try to manipulate us to do the same so the other wont get us. Im just confused about it all now. I wonder a lot if I did something to cause all of this or the three of us did something. It just doesnt make sense otherwise.
I guess each of us has our own way of dealing with this. My younger brother I dont think fully understands whats going on and getting slammed by both our parents lies is probably just confusing him more than I am. My twin brother started vaping when this started because it helped calm him. For a while I was doing ok with handling everything but Ive been feeling like my parents getting divorced is my fault for long enough that I needed something.
Ive started recently using my brothers vape occasionally as well. It really does help just settle my brain down when the craziness of their divorce overwhelms me.
I started writing this post with a purpose but now that Ive actually written it, I honestly dont know what I want out of this or what Im hoping for. Maybe Ive just wasted your time. I dont know. It's a really bizarre feeling.
Before all of this our parents were great and life seemed ok(besides this global pandemic obviously) but now they just tell so many lies about each other and try to manipulate us to do the same so the other wont get us. Im just confused about it all now. I wonder a lot if I did something to cause all of this or the three of us did something. It just doesnt make sense otherwise.
I guess each of us has our own way of dealing with this. My younger brother I dont think fully understands whats going on and getting slammed by both our parents lies is probably just confusing him more than I am. My twin brother started vaping when this started because it helped calm him. For a while I was doing ok with handling everything but Ive been feeling like my parents getting divorced is my fault for long enough that I needed something.
Ive started recently using my brothers vape occasionally as well. It really does help just settle my brain down when the craziness of their divorce overwhelms me.
I started writing this post with a purpose but now that Ive actually written it, I honestly dont know what I want out of this or what Im hoping for. Maybe Ive just wasted your time. I dont know. It's a really bizarre feeling.