Depression Anxiety and... Me

    • Depression Anxiety and... Me

      Hey everyone who knows me and those of you all who don't. Its not something I normally talk about in open forum but I've been through a rough patch lately and wanted to put this somewhere just in case I hit rock bottom. Maybe it can help someone going through similar things?

      Anyway, I'm Karina and I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety last year. It comes from the fact that when I was 12 someone forced themselves on to me. It was a trusted person and even to this day just a tap on the back or a loud noise freaks me out. I also can't speak in front of crowds of more then 6 people without shuddering and feeling sick. Pretty much my coping mechanism is to pretend I'm fine and involve myself in my tennis play.

      I know some people might call this fake or sympathy fishing. I just wanted to get this down and out so that other people know that yeah other people feel the way they do and maybe start a discussion that it's ok to feel this way for any reason? Anyway thanks for reading it if you made it this far sorry it's so long and rambly. :love1:

    • Hey everyone who knows me and those of you all who don't. Its not something I normally talk about in open forum but I've been through a rough patch lately and wanted to put this somewhere just in case I hit rock bottom. Maybe it can help someone going through similar things?

      Karifox wrote:

      Anyway, I'm Karina and I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety last year. It comes from the fact that when I was 12 someone forced themselves on to me. It was a trusted person and even to this day just a tap on the back or a loud noise freaks me out. I also can't speak in front of crowds of more then 6 people without shuddering and feeling sick. Pretty much my coping mechanism is to pretend I'm fine and involve myself in my tennis play.

      I know some people might call this fake or sympathy fishing. I just wanted to get this down and out so that other people know that yeah other people feel the way they do and maybe start a discussion that it's ok to feel this way for any reason? Anyway thanks for reading it if you made it this far sorry it's so long and rambly. :love1:
      I don’t think that sounds fake or fishing at all
      If they’re honest I think every girl has a story of being groped or worse

      hugs
      I’m so sorry about what you have to deal with

    • Karifox wrote:

      Hey everyone who knows me and those of you all who don't. Its not something I normally talk about in open forum but I've been through a rough patch lately and wanted to put this somewhere just in case I hit rock bottom. Maybe it can help someone going through similar things?

      Anyway, I'm Karina and I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety last year. It comes from the fact that when I was 12 someone forced themselves on to me. It was a trusted person and even to this day just a tap on the back or a loud noise freaks me out. I also can't speak in front of crowds of more then 6 people without shuddering and feeling sick. Pretty much my coping mechanism is to pretend I'm fine and involve myself in my tennis play.

      I know some people might call this fake or sympathy fishing. I just wanted to get this down and out so that other people know that yeah other people feel the way they do and maybe start a discussion that it's ok to feel this way for any reason? Anyway thanks for reading it if you made it this far sorry it's so long and rambly. :love1:
      Thank you for being brave about what happen. I hope as you face everything that you know others are here to just listen and not judge.

    • I am so sorry you went through that. First off, you are not alone! I have the similar mental illness. *hugs* It sounds like you've taken a really important first step in talking about it, naming it, getting help. Have you been talking to a therapist too? Talk to someone when you struggle and DON'T pretend it's fine. I did that and almost did hit rock bottom. It's a terribly dark place. You've got this.

    • Kara Zor-El wrote:

      I am so sorry you went through that. First off, you are not alone! I have the similar mental illness. *hugs* It sounds like you've taken a really important first step in talking about it, naming it, getting help. Have you been talking to a therapist too? Talk to someone when you struggle and DON'T pretend it's fine. I did that and almost did hit rock bottom. It's a terribly dark place. You've got this.
      I think it’s a huge step and means a lot to many as most girls have a bad story - some are just worse than others

    • I have pretty much given up at been happy and this point every so often I come out of the darkness but it’s been a tough few years to be honest. I really hope it gets better for you I think there are some really kind people here reading the responses and if you ever want to chat I will do my best for you!

    • I feel you. I also have anxiety, depression, and trust issues, due to trusted friends betraying me in the past. For some time I had given up on any attempts to change anything - I was thinking I am just like this.
      Meeting my girlfriend and her liking and accepting me the way I am made me feel kind of much better about myself and perhaps I will eventually seek therapy to finally get over this. She encourages me to do so - she attended therapy herself and has a very positive feedback.

    • sorry that happened to you :( hope things can start to get better with help @Karifox

      Murderous_bunny wrote:

      I feel you. I also have anxiety, depression, and trust issues, due to trusted friends betraying me in the past. For some time I had given up on any attempts to change anything - I was thinking I am just like this.
      Meeting my girlfriend and her liking and accepting me the way I am made me feel kind of much better about myself and perhaps I will eventually seek therapy to finally get over this. She encourages me to do so - she attended therapy herself and has a very positive feedback.
      I had a similar time with 'friends' betraying or using me to get stuff. And my ex helped me to feel alot more like I could be wanted. Though we broke up which really sucked :(

      But some of the nice girls (and a few boys) I've met on here and VT have made me feel like I can have real friends who are really nice :D

      I won't say I don't still get really down and ;( but I do have you friends to give me a cheer up :hugs:

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