OK, here goes. I used to cut, stopped for about a year, and have now started again. I can't be arsed to talk about why, but the problem it thus:
I told my counsillor I had a problem (the cutting) that I wanted to talk about. I've just come back from 10 days in India with school, and so we were talking about that and how great it was. I think that she may suspect something because one of the teachers on the trip asked me about the 'scratches on your arm'. But anyway, she then goes "so, do you have anything else you want to talk about?" and I say, "yes, but I don't feel I can". I tried to tell her, but I couldn't find the words. Its not something you just slip into a conversation! I tried but ended up saying "I can't." So she wants me to talk about the 'problem' (she doesn't know what it is) next session. The thing is, how on EARTH do I start to talk about it? All I do is clam up and get really frightend when I want to talk about it. I want to say "I've started cutting/self-harming again", but it sounds so coarse and horrible.
So please, how can I start talking about this? Once I've blurted it out, it will be OK. I just need that first sentence.
Thanks - and please advise!
Snow Sheep x
I told my counsillor I had a problem (the cutting) that I wanted to talk about. I've just come back from 10 days in India with school, and so we were talking about that and how great it was. I think that she may suspect something because one of the teachers on the trip asked me about the 'scratches on your arm'. But anyway, she then goes "so, do you have anything else you want to talk about?" and I say, "yes, but I don't feel I can". I tried to tell her, but I couldn't find the words. Its not something you just slip into a conversation! I tried but ended up saying "I can't." So she wants me to talk about the 'problem' (she doesn't know what it is) next session. The thing is, how on EARTH do I start to talk about it? All I do is clam up and get really frightend when I want to talk about it. I want to say "I've started cutting/self-harming again", but it sounds so coarse and horrible.
So please, how can I start talking about this? Once I've blurted it out, it will be OK. I just need that first sentence.
Thanks - and please advise!
Snow Sheep x