O.k. so theres this guy that i went out with but them broke up with. I told him it was because he was to much like a brother and it was awkward. Thats what I told everyone including myself, but I knew that wasn't the real reason, the real reason was that I was afraid of getting hurt again. My best friend who is also friends with him(sorta) tells me he loves me but I don't believe her. I've had to deal with him dating other people and seeing him with them. It hurt so much seeing him with the other girl =(. I also care about him a lot. I couldn't even sleep for about a week because I was afraid he was going to die(he had to go to the hospital and was there for about a week or so). Every time he gets a new girlfriend I cry so much =(. I'm tired of this but I don't want to tell him how I feel since were such good friends and I don't know if he likes me or not.

I've tried before, it doesn't work out because my mind goes blank and i just say something else =(

=/ yeah i guess that could work, i'm just afraid that if he doesn't like me it will ruin our friendship

well i won't see him till like not this sunday but the sunday after that so i guess i have time to work up the courage to talk to him

=] thx



i hope you're right

=] thx

O.k. so I sent him a message on myspace(i know pretty gay but whatever) and told him how i felt. I didn't say everything I told yall but I did tell him I loved him and other stuff. Well I know he read it but he hasn't replied. I sent it last night.

i did tell him
he hasn't said anything yet
and i haven't talked to him since friday

I talked to him today, and i found out he loves me but as a sister. I guess I'll just have to live with that because it's better than loosing him as a friends.

I did tell him. He loves me as a sister. and as i said before i guess thats better than nothing.