Ok its a fairly long story if you dont mind, im not sure if this is the right place to post it as im fairly new here but basically heres my situation. It started around i think was something like octobor 2007, and there was this new girl
at school. At that point in time i believe i immediatly felt attracted to her,
unfortunatly i didnt see her around often and when i did i never had the confidence to speak to her.As time passed by i started to feel more and more for her. Now in my life ive had 2 or 3 people ive fancied before but never like this. Normally it would last a month or so and then would slowly fade. But not this, i only seem to think of her more and more. And so after a while
i believe that the only word i can think to call it is love. The trouble is i could never speak to her, i was always to shy. About one week before the christmas holidays i couldnt hold it in any longer and i made what i now believe the biggest mistake of my life. I dont know why exactly but i saw her and i admitted everything...well mumbled it....and then asked her out.
Now remember at this point id never spoken to her before, she didnt know me at all, and id had walked up to her from nowhere and done this. Of course the answer was no. Id just thrown any chance i had with her out the window. And so i spent the holidays in misery. Now more than ever i want to be able to start something with her, ive tried to forget her and move on but it seems like thats the one thing i could never do.
Id love so much simply to be able to speak to her, to have normal conversation with her as a friend. Nothing more. Just to have that would, for a time at least, be fine with me. But its not that simple.
Every time i see her i remember of that day and i feel as if ive wrecked anything between us. On valentines day i gave her a card, saying i was sorry about before and would like it if we could get to know each other a bit. When i gave it to her she smiled... that smile made me feel the happiest i have ever felt. And yet since then we havnt made any contact at all,
not even eye contact. We were paired together in science for an experiment and she seemed to avoid me most the time. I dont know what to think anymore! Im so depserete im even getting counsilling from the school counsiller. The counsillers trying to help me be able to open conversation with her but i just have this awful fear she would sooner push needles in her eyes than speak to me. But there have been to many mixed messages
for me to make any sense. Often shed offer me a slight smile, only to then break eye contact straight away. I wish so much to speak to her... just to ask something like *doing anything nice over easter* or something but i feel as if after the incident before christmas she might think me strange. I wanna be able to open up a normal conversation with her without giving her any more reason to have a bad impression of me. I wish i could go back and undo all that and have tried to have slowly built something... but its to late now. Id do absolutely anything to have even a slight friendship with her.
But i have a feeling ive wrecked any chance of that, never mind build a relationship. And even if i can open conversation with her, what am i suppost to say? Please help! Ive know idear what to think anymore.
I love her so much id do anything to gain the confidence to speak to her and have something to actually say. How can i feel so deeply for someone ive barely spoken to? How am i suppost to speak to her? So many questions! Advice would be incredibly helpful. Sorry if it was a little long but ive had alot building up on my mind the last few months :confused:
at school. At that point in time i believe i immediatly felt attracted to her,
unfortunatly i didnt see her around often and when i did i never had the confidence to speak to her.As time passed by i started to feel more and more for her. Now in my life ive had 2 or 3 people ive fancied before but never like this. Normally it would last a month or so and then would slowly fade. But not this, i only seem to think of her more and more. And so after a while
i believe that the only word i can think to call it is love. The trouble is i could never speak to her, i was always to shy. About one week before the christmas holidays i couldnt hold it in any longer and i made what i now believe the biggest mistake of my life. I dont know why exactly but i saw her and i admitted everything...well mumbled it....and then asked her out.
Now remember at this point id never spoken to her before, she didnt know me at all, and id had walked up to her from nowhere and done this. Of course the answer was no. Id just thrown any chance i had with her out the window. And so i spent the holidays in misery. Now more than ever i want to be able to start something with her, ive tried to forget her and move on but it seems like thats the one thing i could never do.
Id love so much simply to be able to speak to her, to have normal conversation with her as a friend. Nothing more. Just to have that would, for a time at least, be fine with me. But its not that simple.
Every time i see her i remember of that day and i feel as if ive wrecked anything between us. On valentines day i gave her a card, saying i was sorry about before and would like it if we could get to know each other a bit. When i gave it to her she smiled... that smile made me feel the happiest i have ever felt. And yet since then we havnt made any contact at all,
not even eye contact. We were paired together in science for an experiment and she seemed to avoid me most the time. I dont know what to think anymore! Im so depserete im even getting counsilling from the school counsiller. The counsillers trying to help me be able to open conversation with her but i just have this awful fear she would sooner push needles in her eyes than speak to me. But there have been to many mixed messages
for me to make any sense. Often shed offer me a slight smile, only to then break eye contact straight away. I wish so much to speak to her... just to ask something like *doing anything nice over easter* or something but i feel as if after the incident before christmas she might think me strange. I wanna be able to open up a normal conversation with her without giving her any more reason to have a bad impression of me. I wish i could go back and undo all that and have tried to have slowly built something... but its to late now. Id do absolutely anything to have even a slight friendship with her.
But i have a feeling ive wrecked any chance of that, never mind build a relationship. And even if i can open conversation with her, what am i suppost to say? Please help! Ive know idear what to think anymore.
I love her so much id do anything to gain the confidence to speak to her and have something to actually say. How can i feel so deeply for someone ive barely spoken to? How am i suppost to speak to her? So many questions! Advice would be incredibly helpful. Sorry if it was a little long but ive had alot building up on my mind the last few months :confused: