ABOUT 2 YEARS AGO I MET THIS KID WHO I WASNT ATTRACTED TO ATALL. STRICTLY FRIEND TYP RELATIONSHIP. HONESTLY AT FIRST I THOUGHT HE WAS GAY. THEN I WAS PUT AROUND HIM MORE THEN ONCE THROUGH FRIENDS AND WE STARTED HANGING OUT JUST THE TWO OF US. HE MET THE FAMILY -EVN THO HE WAS 17 AND I WAS 13 MY FAMILY APROVED; BECAUSE HE WASNT A VERY THREATNING KID. HE WAS VERY RESPECTFUL AND UPWRIGHT-SO HE BECAME ONE OF THE REGULARS. WE WER BESTFRIENDS AFTER A WHILE.
I ALWAYS KNEW HE HAD SOMETHING FOR ME, BUT I WASNT INTRESTED. HE TRYED FOR SO LONG. JUST TO GET ME TO GIVE HIM THE TIME OF DAY. I TOLD HIM ALL MY GUY TROUBLES & FAMILY DRAMA; JUST LIKE I WOULD TO ONE OF MY FEMALE FRIENDS. HE CAME ON A FAMILY VACTION WITH US & SOME HOW BUT THE END OF THE TRIP WE HOOKD UP. IT FELT REALLY WEIRD. CAUSE LIKE I SAID I NEVR FELT THAT WAY TWARDS HIM. AFTER THAT HE ASKED ME OUT. & IN MY MIND THE ONLY THING I COULD THINK WAS "YOU'LL NEVER KNOW UNTILL YOU TRY."
SO OFCOURSE I DID. IT ENDED UP BEING A 7 MOUNTH RELATIONSHIP (WHICH WAS ALSO MY FIRST SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP) & NITHER OF US KAN LET GO. IM SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM, BUT I KNOW THINGS WILL NEVER WORK BETWEEN US AGIAN BECAUSE OF THE EVENTS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP AND WHY IT ENDED. WE STILL TALLK LIKE WE LOVE EACHOTHER & WE STILL SEE EACHOTHER EVRY DAY, WE STILL GET JELOUS AND POSSECIVE. U KNOE LIKE ANY " COUPLE " WOULD.
IN THE 4TH MONTH OF OUR RELATIONSHIP I CHEATED ON HIM WITH ONE OF MY BROTHERS FRIENDS WHO IVE HAD A CRUSH ON FOR A WHILE BUT NVR SAID ANYTHING. WE WER BOTH VRY DRUNK BUT IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED AT THE TIME. & NOT LONG AFTER THAT I CHEATED ON HIM AGIAN (ONLY POP KISSING AN EX BOYFRIEND) . BUT IT WAS STILL WRONG. HE HAD CAUGHT MY IN A TONS OF SITUATION WHERE HE THOUGH I WAS BEING "UNFAITHFUL" MOST OF THE TIMES NOT TOO SERIOUS, LIKE TEXTING A GUY OR SOMTHING LIKE THAT.
FURTHER INTO THE RELATIONSHIP HE GOT CONTROLLING AND WOULDNT LET ME HANG OUT WITH ANY MALE FRIENDS OR SO MUCH AS HAVE A NIGHT OUT ON MY OWN. HE DID HIS OWN THINGS BUT I WAS FORCED TO STAY AT HOME FEARING HE WOULD GET UPSET WITH ME. HE HELD MY PAST MISTAKES AGAINST ME IN EVRY SITUATION POSSIBLE. EVRY FIGHT ENDED W/ YOU CHEATED ON ME, YOU HURT ME AND U MUST GAIN YOUR RESPECT BACK. & HE KEPT TELLING ME I HAVE TO GAIN MY TRUST BACK BASICLLY I HAD TO GAIN BACK HIS LOVE. EVN THOUGH HE STAYED WITH ME THROUGH ALL OF THIS.
I FINALLY GOT FED UP WITH HIS DOMINATE WAYS AND BROKE UP WITH HIM. WE'VE BEEN APART FOR SEVERAL MONTHS BUT I STILL LOVE HIM AND CANT COMPLETLY LET HIM GO. EVEN THOUGH I THREW OUT THE LABLE IM STILL IN THE EVRY DAY PAIN OF BEING WITH HIM, AT ONE POINT FOR ABOUT A 3 WEEK PERIOD I CRYED ATLEAST TWO TIMES A DAY. HES GOTTEN A LITTLE BETTER AND IVE GOTTEN A LITTLE TOUGHER BUT WE STILL FIGHT CONSTANTLY. IVE EVN RESORTED TO CUTTING MYSELF TO CHANGE MY EMOTIONAL PAIN TO PHYSICAL.
TODAY MY MOM WENT ON MY MYSPACE [WITHOUT MY PERMISSION] AND FOUND MESSAGES WHER I HAD SAID SOMTHING ABOUT MY UNHEALTHY HABBIT. SHE COMPLETLY FLIPPED OUT. (I HAVE BEEN ASKING MY MOTHER TO GET ME A THERIPST OR SOMEONE TO TALK TO SINCE THE BREAK UP & SHE HAS DONE NOTHING ABOUT IT). WHAT SHOULD SHE EXPECT?! I TRYED REACHING OUT FOR HELP AND GOT THE COLD SHOULDER. NOW SHES TELLING ME IM FORBIDDEN TO SEE THE MAN IM IN LOVE WITH & IF SHE SEES MY AROUND HIM OR EVN TALKING OT HIM IN ANYWAY, SHE WILL CALL THE POLICE FOR STAGITORY RAPE; SEEING AS HE IS 19 AND IM 15.
WHAT SHOULD I DO ? KEEP TALKING TO THE PERSON IM WRONGFULLY IN LOVE WITH OR LISTEN TO MY MOTHER AND TRY MY BEST TO LEAVE HIM IN THE PAST.
I ALWAYS KNEW HE HAD SOMETHING FOR ME, BUT I WASNT INTRESTED. HE TRYED FOR SO LONG. JUST TO GET ME TO GIVE HIM THE TIME OF DAY. I TOLD HIM ALL MY GUY TROUBLES & FAMILY DRAMA; JUST LIKE I WOULD TO ONE OF MY FEMALE FRIENDS. HE CAME ON A FAMILY VACTION WITH US & SOME HOW BUT THE END OF THE TRIP WE HOOKD UP. IT FELT REALLY WEIRD. CAUSE LIKE I SAID I NEVR FELT THAT WAY TWARDS HIM. AFTER THAT HE ASKED ME OUT. & IN MY MIND THE ONLY THING I COULD THINK WAS "YOU'LL NEVER KNOW UNTILL YOU TRY."
SO OFCOURSE I DID. IT ENDED UP BEING A 7 MOUNTH RELATIONSHIP (WHICH WAS ALSO MY FIRST SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP) & NITHER OF US KAN LET GO. IM SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM, BUT I KNOW THINGS WILL NEVER WORK BETWEEN US AGIAN BECAUSE OF THE EVENTS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP AND WHY IT ENDED. WE STILL TALLK LIKE WE LOVE EACHOTHER & WE STILL SEE EACHOTHER EVRY DAY, WE STILL GET JELOUS AND POSSECIVE. U KNOE LIKE ANY " COUPLE " WOULD.
IN THE 4TH MONTH OF OUR RELATIONSHIP I CHEATED ON HIM WITH ONE OF MY BROTHERS FRIENDS WHO IVE HAD A CRUSH ON FOR A WHILE BUT NVR SAID ANYTHING. WE WER BOTH VRY DRUNK BUT IT WAS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED AT THE TIME. & NOT LONG AFTER THAT I CHEATED ON HIM AGIAN (ONLY POP KISSING AN EX BOYFRIEND) . BUT IT WAS STILL WRONG. HE HAD CAUGHT MY IN A TONS OF SITUATION WHERE HE THOUGH I WAS BEING "UNFAITHFUL" MOST OF THE TIMES NOT TOO SERIOUS, LIKE TEXTING A GUY OR SOMTHING LIKE THAT.
FURTHER INTO THE RELATIONSHIP HE GOT CONTROLLING AND WOULDNT LET ME HANG OUT WITH ANY MALE FRIENDS OR SO MUCH AS HAVE A NIGHT OUT ON MY OWN. HE DID HIS OWN THINGS BUT I WAS FORCED TO STAY AT HOME FEARING HE WOULD GET UPSET WITH ME. HE HELD MY PAST MISTAKES AGAINST ME IN EVRY SITUATION POSSIBLE. EVRY FIGHT ENDED W/ YOU CHEATED ON ME, YOU HURT ME AND U MUST GAIN YOUR RESPECT BACK. & HE KEPT TELLING ME I HAVE TO GAIN MY TRUST BACK BASICLLY I HAD TO GAIN BACK HIS LOVE. EVN THOUGH HE STAYED WITH ME THROUGH ALL OF THIS.
I FINALLY GOT FED UP WITH HIS DOMINATE WAYS AND BROKE UP WITH HIM. WE'VE BEEN APART FOR SEVERAL MONTHS BUT I STILL LOVE HIM AND CANT COMPLETLY LET HIM GO. EVEN THOUGH I THREW OUT THE LABLE IM STILL IN THE EVRY DAY PAIN OF BEING WITH HIM, AT ONE POINT FOR ABOUT A 3 WEEK PERIOD I CRYED ATLEAST TWO TIMES A DAY. HES GOTTEN A LITTLE BETTER AND IVE GOTTEN A LITTLE TOUGHER BUT WE STILL FIGHT CONSTANTLY. IVE EVN RESORTED TO CUTTING MYSELF TO CHANGE MY EMOTIONAL PAIN TO PHYSICAL.
TODAY MY MOM WENT ON MY MYSPACE [WITHOUT MY PERMISSION] AND FOUND MESSAGES WHER I HAD SAID SOMTHING ABOUT MY UNHEALTHY HABBIT. SHE COMPLETLY FLIPPED OUT. (I HAVE BEEN ASKING MY MOTHER TO GET ME A THERIPST OR SOMEONE TO TALK TO SINCE THE BREAK UP & SHE HAS DONE NOTHING ABOUT IT). WHAT SHOULD SHE EXPECT?! I TRYED REACHING OUT FOR HELP AND GOT THE COLD SHOULDER. NOW SHES TELLING ME IM FORBIDDEN TO SEE THE MAN IM IN LOVE WITH & IF SHE SEES MY AROUND HIM OR EVN TALKING OT HIM IN ANYWAY, SHE WILL CALL THE POLICE FOR STAGITORY RAPE; SEEING AS HE IS 19 AND IM 15.
WHAT SHOULD I DO ? KEEP TALKING TO THE PERSON IM WRONGFULLY IN LOVE WITH OR LISTEN TO MY MOTHER AND TRY MY BEST TO LEAVE HIM IN THE PAST.
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