D: I'm bored, got nothing better to do, and I was pondering whether I should ask for advice or not. So I just thought "fuck it, worst case scenario is I don't listen D:"
I've always considered myself rather geeky, till high school in which I tried being a lil' better but I'm only like half geeky now imo :p
Either way I've never really been popular with teh_gurlz. I was a friend to some, but not a very close one either. I never got a kiss on the lips, btw ><
I've always known it was because of my lack of confidence, but the knowledge didn't help me at all, and actually, my reaching to this age while being a loser in my eyes, hasn't really improved me in that area. I only asked one girl out (before what I'm about to say) and got a no, other than that all my crushed didn't ever find out they were my crushes D: at least, I don't think so xD
I've always had good friends, they're increasing in number too, that's not my problem. I have plenty of lady friends these days too. Well maybe not plenty but I do have some. :o
Last year, I went to the pool with a lady friend and her best friend. I'll say that their names are for the sake of this post, G and N. Around 8 weeks ago, after on and off contact with only G and not N, I got randomly invited to a party she was having. N was there, and we really got to talk and connect better then, prolly cause we were both a little drunk and open minded :p stuff went well, I ended up walking her home, I didn't make any moves though cause I didn't really create a good moment, mainly I was also pretty drowsy and tipsy, so it was hard for me to think clearly. I managed to ger her MSN, talked to her a lot, got her phone number eventually, texted her a lil', only talked like once in a call, but we did talk plenty on MSN. I finally had a free weekend so I asked her out, it was kinda vaguely suggested by me though, so she didn't realize I meant a date. We just ended up hanging out in the street and walking around the beach and talking for like 5 hours. Again at the end I didn't make any move >< I finally had another free weekend two weeks later, and while keeping in contact with her inbetween (which btw wasn't that much contact, she was busy a lot), I asked her out again, but this time made it clear that I meant a date. She said that she just got out of a relationship and doesn't want anything commitive, so no, but she'll say when she's ready. After that we started getting even farther apart, and I can barely manage to talk to her lately with school on her shoulders all the time :/ she studies a lot harder than me, and she's a grade below me too. Thing is I think she's growing farther and farther away from my reach, and I haven't seen her face in a few good weeks. Ever since that last hangout, really. She always comes back late, and whenever I try going somewhere with her she's always either already got plans, just doesn't have time or go off before I manage to ask her. And I don't mean dates or anything, just friendly hang out.
So uh... Thoughts an opinions D:
I've always considered myself rather geeky, till high school in which I tried being a lil' better but I'm only like half geeky now imo :p
Either way I've never really been popular with teh_gurlz. I was a friend to some, but not a very close one either. I never got a kiss on the lips, btw ><
I've always known it was because of my lack of confidence, but the knowledge didn't help me at all, and actually, my reaching to this age while being a loser in my eyes, hasn't really improved me in that area. I only asked one girl out (before what I'm about to say) and got a no, other than that all my crushed didn't ever find out they were my crushes D: at least, I don't think so xD
I've always had good friends, they're increasing in number too, that's not my problem. I have plenty of lady friends these days too. Well maybe not plenty but I do have some. :o
Last year, I went to the pool with a lady friend and her best friend. I'll say that their names are for the sake of this post, G and N. Around 8 weeks ago, after on and off contact with only G and not N, I got randomly invited to a party she was having. N was there, and we really got to talk and connect better then, prolly cause we were both a little drunk and open minded :p stuff went well, I ended up walking her home, I didn't make any moves though cause I didn't really create a good moment, mainly I was also pretty drowsy and tipsy, so it was hard for me to think clearly. I managed to ger her MSN, talked to her a lot, got her phone number eventually, texted her a lil', only talked like once in a call, but we did talk plenty on MSN. I finally had a free weekend so I asked her out, it was kinda vaguely suggested by me though, so she didn't realize I meant a date. We just ended up hanging out in the street and walking around the beach and talking for like 5 hours. Again at the end I didn't make any move >< I finally had another free weekend two weeks later, and while keeping in contact with her inbetween (which btw wasn't that much contact, she was busy a lot), I asked her out again, but this time made it clear that I meant a date. She said that she just got out of a relationship and doesn't want anything commitive, so no, but she'll say when she's ready. After that we started getting even farther apart, and I can barely manage to talk to her lately with school on her shoulders all the time :/ she studies a lot harder than me, and she's a grade below me too. Thing is I think she's growing farther and farther away from my reach, and I haven't seen her face in a few good weeks. Ever since that last hangout, really. She always comes back late, and whenever I try going somewhere with her she's always either already got plans, just doesn't have time or go off before I manage to ask her. And I don't mean dates or anything, just friendly hang out.
So uh... Thoughts an opinions D: