I am a fifteen year old girl. I feel like a total failure in life. I fight with my family a lot. I am mad at my friend for sometimes belittling me, but I can't say anything because my shyness controls my life--I am in a club at school but haven't met anyone. I don't like my weight even though it is normal. I feel like I'm stuck in the same spot and can't get out. My medicine for social anxiety and OCD (I was diagnosed with both) help a little, but not enough. I check that the front door is locked and that the front hall closet is shut before I go to bed. I am also not willing to be downstairs alone incase a bad person shoots me from the backyard. If I am on the computer I minimize the screens incase the person will read it. I have been going to counseling since fourth grade because I used to climb all up in my closet searching for criminals. I also have this thought where I try to make the endings of a rootword longer by one word. My favorite is light- because I can got five from it (light, lights, lighten, lighting, lightning). I also feel that people are going to be able to see a list of every word I say and I change what I say to not repeat something and to sound smart. I feel that I have OCD and I have been diagnosed by a couple psycholgists. I also have sobeen diagnosed by my psychiatrist with social anxiety. I am outgoing at home but i clam up at school. I feel like I am being judged by people my age. I don't even like standing up at lunch in front of my friends who are sitting down because they will think that I am fat. I feel very open with my classmates. However, they tell me that I am weird/random/annoying. How can I talk to someone? My parents said I could go to a therapist and I'm going to. Thanks.
Friends and fam don't know all this
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You are going through alot of stuff I went through. I always thought people were against me. The only cure i found was to find one real close helpful friend. I have constant fights at home, I too worry about things that wont happen. Seriously, find one good friend that you know wont judge you. Untill then, talk to people online with similar problems. I used to do that alot and it helped me from going crazy and killing myself. If you wait, like I did for 10 years, some one will come along that will completly change your life for the better.[CENTER]~In a world that i dont want to know~
~With a message that i never want to send~
~To be free from all of this~
~I want you to quicken my end~[/CENTER] -
love2loveyou wrote:
I am a fifteen year old girl. I feel like a total failure in life. I fight with my family a lot. I am mad at my friend for sometimes belittling me, but I can't say anything because my shyness controls my life--I am in a club at school but haven't met anyone. I don't like my weight even though it is normal. I feel like I'm stuck in the same spot and can't get out. My medicine for social anxiety and OCD (I was diagnosed with both) help a little, but not enough. I check that the front door is locked and that the front hall closet is shut before I go to bed. I am also not willing to be downstairs alone incase a bad person shoots me from the backyard. If I am on the computer I minimize the screens incase the person will read it. I have been going to counseling since fourth grade because I used to climb all up in my closet searching for criminals. I also have this thought where I try to make the endings of a rootword longer by one word. My favorite is light- because I can got five from it (light, lights, lighten, lighting, lightning). I also feel that people are going to be able to see a list of every word I say and I change what I say to not repeat something and to sound smart. I feel that I have OCD and I have been diagnosed by a couple psycholgists. I also have sobeen diagnosed by my psychiatrist with social anxiety. I am outgoing at home but i clam up at school. I feel like I am being judged by people my age. I don't even like standing up at lunch in front of my friends who are sitting down because they will think that I am fat. I feel very open with my classmates. However, they tell me that I am weird/random/annoying. How can I talk to someone? My parents said I could go to a therapist and I'm going to. Thanks.
The stuff i highlightedin orange is normal. Ill break it down for you a bit.
I am a fifteen year old girl. I feel like a total failure in life. I fight with my family a lot. I am mad at my friend for sometimes belittling me
Thats normal. Your a teenager, As a kid, my family members always compared me to other children and made me feel like a failure. I felt i did nothing correctly, but thats part of life. You just need to stay strong throught it all. About your friend, they are just laughing at you for fun, everyone needs to learn to laugh at themselvs. Everyone gets teased, get over it.
I don't like my weight even though it is normal.
Congrat's, your just as perfectly normal as every other 15 year old girl. Just dont puke up after every meal and your fine.
I check that the front door is locked and that the front hall closet is shut before I go to bed. I am also not willing to be downstairs alone incase a bad person shoots me from the backyard. If I am on the computer I minimize the screens incase the person will read it.
Your supposed to make sure your front door is shut, thats part of being safe and making sure gorge bush doesnt invade your house and kill you. My mom is also scared of going downstairs alone at night. Its normal, she just takes the dog with her when she goes.
If your on the computer, you minimize the screen. Your just a teenager, if someone walks in on me on the computer i always minimize my IM windows. Its normal privacy, you dont want people reading what you are talking about. And when i was younger and looked at porn i did the same also.
I used to climb all up in my closet searching for criminals.
Whooooo Martha Stewert is going to get you because of tax evasion...WHOOO. No but seriously, when i was in fourth grade i looked under the bed for monsters too(probly). WHy the hell is therapy needed. Your parents are way to doft on you.
However, they tell me that I am weird/random/annoying.
Wherever you go there will be people who dont like you. No one is perfect, people think i am mean, but thats me take it or leave it. Its who i am, and you are who you are. -
yes, because people like me(convicted felons)[expunged] arent selling dope to make money, we just enjoy reading your IM messages
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DownSinceDay1 wrote:
yes, because people like me(convicted felons)[expunged] arent selling dope to make money, we just enjoy reading your IM messages
Hey you dont know what ppl do these day.. i got a stalker who recently bought binoculars... although i revolted by buying an airsoft gun. Hah![CENTER]~In a world that i dont want to know~
~With a message that i never want to send~
~To be free from all of this~
~I want you to quicken my end~[/CENTER] -
love2loveyou wrote:
Not funny.
yeah it is. alot of your 'problems' are normal things many teenagers face -
Very funny, and your normal, your 15. You're changing, as long as you aren't out shooting up and working a corner, your pretty well off. You have problems, I have problems, we all have problems, don't go to therapy for them. And if you are going to go like you said, there was no need to post this.
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Josh2250 wrote:
Very funny, and your normal, your 15. You're changing, as long as you aren't out shooting up and working a corner, your pretty well off. You have problems, I have problems, we all have problems, don't go to therapy for them. And if you are going to go like you said, there was no need to post this.
He's right. I just had to wait it out. Took a while, but things changed. Now to be honest, I wouldn't change a thing in my life. Its at this critical time in your life when teens choose which path to take. Trust me, your problems will fix themselves in no time.[CENTER]~In a world that i dont want to know~
~With a message that i never want to send~
~To be free from all of this~
~I want you to quicken my end~[/CENTER] -
for someone who decides to post about their feelings, it isnt nice to see a load of people saying 'get over it, its normal.'. if someone said that to you after you had posted about things that really affected your everyday life badly and you got replies like this, you wouldn't feel good, would you?
love2loveyou - i understand where you're coming from. i think more than a therapist you need a friend who hasn't been there for you before. you don't have to go out and make a bunch of new friends, just one person would do. it could even be someone online. hey, it could be me if you wanted it to be. it's just a way of trying to make yourself 'normal' if you don't feel that you are normal. by talking to someone you've never talked to before [not about your problems at all, just concentrating on 'normal' things for teenagers] you're taking yourself away from the unconfident you and creating a new more outgoing you. then, slowly, the confidence will develop and you'll be able to be the way you are with your new friend with everyone else aswell.
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love2loveyou wrote:
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She just wanted attention -
i think that too.
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