Its been a year and half now and im still not over my ex. We went out on and off for a 3 year period and finally we just stopped just seeing eachother all together. i dont know weather it was because we stopped having so many lessons with eachother in school, but after the age of 14 me and her have really drifted apart. Im 16 now and i still feel EXACLY the same about as i did when we went out, if not stronger emotions beause ive matured.
I havnt had a relatonship with anyone else since then, and she still is to this day the only girl i truely love. But as much as i hate it, i know she has been going out with other guys and is pretty much over me. I havnt seen her in the flesh for months now, but ive looked at her myspace and ive spoken to he over MSN a few times and its clear shes over me. The conversations are alot different now, its all small talk rather than deep conversations what we used to have. Its always me starting the conversations aswell and they quickly go stale. I feel the spark we used to have is gone and i really do miss it.
It doesnt help that i dont have any other girls to focus on, i feel that if i had other girls to talk to and be friendly with, getting over her would be alot easier. But all the girls i know either have serious boyfriends or i simply dont want to be with them or they dont want to be with me.
Im finding accepting shes gone a really hard thing to cope with, ive never had to get over a serious relationship before so im finding it extremely tougth. No matter what i say to myself to get it into my head that shes gone forever, another part of me keeps telling me to hold on either because there is some form or deluded hope or because there simply is noone else there.
I want to tell her how I feel but it feels awkward to tell somone i havnt spoken to in a while about my deepest emotions. Im pretty sure if i did it would freak her out and shed probably show all her friends and current boyfriend what i said and have a good old laugh about it.
Its been the last 2 or 3 months that have been the hardest because i realised how long its been and how little ive moved on, i feel like a total loser. I really need to get over and i feel that i need some good advice from people who have gone through this before. The only person i can talk to about it at the moment is my best friend and although hes a good listener , hes very crap at giving good advice.
Any help or feedback is greatly appreciated thankyou, feel free to ask me any othe questions or information that you need, to give me better advice.
I havnt had a relatonship with anyone else since then, and she still is to this day the only girl i truely love. But as much as i hate it, i know she has been going out with other guys and is pretty much over me. I havnt seen her in the flesh for months now, but ive looked at her myspace and ive spoken to he over MSN a few times and its clear shes over me. The conversations are alot different now, its all small talk rather than deep conversations what we used to have. Its always me starting the conversations aswell and they quickly go stale. I feel the spark we used to have is gone and i really do miss it.
It doesnt help that i dont have any other girls to focus on, i feel that if i had other girls to talk to and be friendly with, getting over her would be alot easier. But all the girls i know either have serious boyfriends or i simply dont want to be with them or they dont want to be with me.
Im finding accepting shes gone a really hard thing to cope with, ive never had to get over a serious relationship before so im finding it extremely tougth. No matter what i say to myself to get it into my head that shes gone forever, another part of me keeps telling me to hold on either because there is some form or deluded hope or because there simply is noone else there.
I want to tell her how I feel but it feels awkward to tell somone i havnt spoken to in a while about my deepest emotions. Im pretty sure if i did it would freak her out and shed probably show all her friends and current boyfriend what i said and have a good old laugh about it.
Its been the last 2 or 3 months that have been the hardest because i realised how long its been and how little ive moved on, i feel like a total loser. I really need to get over and i feel that i need some good advice from people who have gone through this before. The only person i can talk to about it at the moment is my best friend and although hes a good listener , hes very crap at giving good advice.
Any help or feedback is greatly appreciated thankyou, feel free to ask me any othe questions or information that you need, to give me better advice.
