What made you decide...

Musicaddicted · Apr 19th 2009, 4:59am

... to self harm for the first time?

Someone brought this up on another site and I was kinda curious about ur first experience/reasoning...

I started due to a lot of different things that I'll explain later(not so easy to type on an itouch)

I don't want to pry, but answer if u want to...

RockMeBaby<3 · Apr 19th 2009, 5:06am

I never have; but I've thought about it.

Things were really stressful, my father killed himself because he was deperssed and his meds weren't helping and a lot of other things, I was constantly bullied and beat up at school and everything was just going down hill. :\

BfLaaAON3k6wHxYfnBYW · Apr 19th 2009, 5:28am

Too much depression and sadness did.
Its completely useless.
But helps you not mind things and calms you.

Musicaddicted · Apr 19th 2009, 5:44am

It is useless but it always seemed to give me strength to get thru and focus and helped me gain calm...I started because I was verbally and emotionally abused by my family, molested by my uncle as a small child and I have severely depressed parents...just a lot of stress and bad memories that I wanted to get rid of I guess

I'm sorry u went thru that RockMeBaby<3...

If either of u ever want to talk I'm here...

shawnwaters · Apr 19th 2009, 9:23am

Well...for me...it was because I felt that I deserved pain...

I was stupid...

Then...the next time I nearly cut, it was again, because I felt worthless...that I deserved pain...

tinhead · Apr 19th 2009, 2:18pm

I haven't but it seemed most appealing (basically would have done it if I wasn't sacred of the pain) when suffering from an unrequited love situation, in short I was feeling worthless.

Insomniac urea · Apr 19th 2009, 5:34pm

Missing someone ...

KG58 · Apr 20th 2009, 9:38pm

I was just realy depressed and angry

asukara · Apr 22nd 2009, 4:40am

A mixture of stress and abuse.

When I first started, it was when I had a lot of schoolwork piled up, as well as abusive parents and negligent friends. I still do it whenever everything gets to be too much.

xd18 · Apr 22nd 2009, 4:46am

Oh this thread doesn't apply to me. *Votes on poll*

*Leaves*

ben101 · Apr 22nd 2009, 11:55am

I have never cut, just go for a nice relaxing walk instead, think things over and i wear myself out

Much better alternative IMO

BramLovesYou · Apr 23rd 2009, 1:52am

I selected "abuse" because I really felt emotionally abused, by friends, girls, etc. I just needed a distraction, you know? Not easy to explain.

SugarrBum · Apr 25th 2009, 3:34pm

I didnt cut, my i scratched my wrist and it scarrred.
And it hurt alot.
I dnt like the thought of cutting, because my friend did it,
and i know what it did to her :(
I have thought about it though, well all the time.

Magnet_head · Apr 25th 2009, 5:39pm

I never have, and never will

purplepenguin65 · Apr 26th 2009, 9:25pm

i did because was losing everybody and everything. i was completly alone at the time. i just needed away to release the inside pain. i stilll cut and i hate it...

xX Paranoid Pessimist Xx · Apr 29th 2009, 10:36pm

Depression and sadness overwhelmed me.
Then the emotional abuse of my parents became too much,
I was upset with my life, my lifestyle.

Cutting makes me feel good about myself.
it's a distraction,
it's something I CAN control.
I may not be able to control my sad feelings or the way I'm treated/my lifestyle, but I CAN control the pain I cause myself. It feels too good.

ben101 · Apr 30th 2009, 12:39am

xX Paranoid Pessimist Xx wrote:

Depression and sadness overwhelmed me.
Then the emotional abuse of my parents became too much,
I was upset with my life, my lifestyle.

Cutting makes me feel good about myself.
it's a distraction,
it's something I CAN control.
I may not be able to control my sad feelings or the way I'm treated/my lifestyle, but I CAN control the pain I cause myself. It feels too good.

This is what i dont understand.

Cutting makes you feel good about yourself???

Shouldnt it make you worse, the realisation that your inflicting harm to yourself?

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