Ok so, here's the story. Me and this girl have been best friends for almost 9 years, the other part of the story is that i've been in love with her brother for 9 years aswel. I never thought anything would happen between us since he's a little older than me (only by 3 years) and for the longest time nothing did happen, so I convinced myself that it wasn't going to. Eventually when we were alone together he tried to kiss me, and it all happend so fast that I kinda froze in shock. I was shocked it was actually happening, I had wanted it for so long. I blew my chance. This was back in September. A few days ago the chance came up again, and I took it. We were laughing and talking, and making out for over 5 hours. That's not the part I need help with, what I do need help with is the fact that now that's happend, he won't even be in the same room as me. He won't talk to me or even look at me. If we end up in the same room, he'll leave. I know it's awkward because no one else in his family knows and their not gunna know, but I never expected this to happen. I don't know how to get things back to normal. I mean, I want to be with him.. BADLY but I don't know what to do. I never knew this was gunna happen. WHAT DO I DO?!?!?!?!?:(

I know that guys can be assholes, but I thought that this one was different. Because I had known him for so long, we had become really good friends and we knew almost everything about each other. I didn't think he's really do that to me. The way that he was made it seem that he actually cared. He'd stop to ask me if I was uncomfortable with the situation, and ask me if I was okay and stuff, as though he cared about me and didn't want to make me move to fast, since he's gone alot farther with a girl than I have with a guy.

Thanks guys. I don't know when i'll get the courage to say anything, but I will, soon.

Oh it's been awkward. I haven't talked to him about it yet, but we've at least been in the same room as each other for more than 30 seconds. I couldn't say anything to him because my best friend (his sister) and his little brother were there, and neither of them know, and neither of them can know. I talked to him on the phone for a few minutes today, not about that because I was being rushed, but we had an actual conversation without it being totally weird. I think that now hopefully that we've giving it a little bit of time, he knows a little more about how to deal with the awkwardness, and hopefully things are slowly going back to normal

i'm 15 and he's 18

no.. it's not illegal but it's pretty close..

Okay people.. i'm back.. with news. Sorry it's taken so long for me to figure this out but, hey, at least I know what's going on now.
Just thought i'd keep you posted and let you know what's happend.
Okay.. well, since I was on here last I have been with him again. We did talk about it and now I know what's going on. He cares about me but not in that sort of way. Apparently it was for "entertainment" purposes (which doesn't sound good I know, but there's nothing I can do about that). We can at least manage to stay in the same room and have since kinda hung out. Not just the two of us alone, we were with other people and nothing happend, but we still talked and stuff as if nothing had happend. Everything is pretty much back to the same way it used to be before this happend, except for the fact that I try to be ready for it at any time. That's pretty much really everything that's been going on. Nothing to major but, whatever

wow, i never thought of it that way but.. yeah i guess your right. lucky guy i know.. and he doesn't even have to worry about commitment. it's bad i know (now that i've seen it that way) but i can't really help it, i mean, i've been in love with this guy for my whole life, and i guess i'm willing to do what it takes to make him happy <-- that sounds gay, i know

words to live by only if you really love the guy =P