He wants to take me on a date tonight... He's making it so much harder for me.. We haven't been on a date in years.

Well and the thing is... he used to HATE working hard for not much money. He was being a fuckin baby about it. And now he's working HARD labor, and he doesn't bitch about it, he's doing really well there. It's like now that I told him I'm fuckin gone, he's changing his whole attitude.. I don't know what to do!! Help me!!

He wants to take me for dinner, drinks, and dancing tonight! :eek:

he'll be the death of me before smoking, I'll tell you that much. BUT, I didn't do it. My landlord threw a curveball at me, so I'm gonna stay till the middle of August. Otherwise I have to pay rent at 2 places. No sense in that. So I'm gonna suck it up and then be done with it by September.

Thanks for all your help with everything guys!

I chickened out too. We talked about it, and I had so many panic attacks, I couldn't say what I wanted to say. I just had to calm myself down.. So the night of dining and drinking and dancing? We went to play poker at his brothers, and got PISSED of Jagerbombs... then went to the bar, and everyone signed my bf's ass! lol. Then my bf's sister-in-law's cousin came up to me, asked me if I was bi, and when I said, "No, why?" She says to me, "Cause you're super fuckin hot and I really want to make out with you." I was like, o...kay..... haha. Wild night!

Yeah, everything the the attacks was awesome.. muahahahaha! Man, I got up Saturday morning, and I was still SO fucking drunk, it was retarded. But I couldnt' sleep anymore, so I sat on here for a few hours talkin to people while I was pissed haha.

Yeah I'm still here till August.. But oh well.