I used to be on another website called TeenHelp.org but they treated me very badly. They didnt even care when I thought about committing suicide and I felt all alone.
My mother drinks a lot and says that I'm worthless, that I'm nothing, and that I'll never amount to anything. I play the piano, I write, I want to travel all over the world, and go to the University of Manchester in England. My grandparents were born in England and I'm just so tired of being here. I'm ashamed to call myself an American. (Yes, that's how bad it gets around my house. I've seen enough of America to know that I do NOT want to stay here anymore). I have more friends in Ireland than I do in the whole of the state I live in.
We are having money problems, we have to move, my mother has nobody else to talk to so I feel obligated to stay here and help her....my father is a drug addict and I'm not sure how to handle it. I just want to leave and to never come back here again. Every time I say I want to move to England, I have people from the UK saying, "Ew an American, a yankee, dont come here, we dont want you here" I'm dead serious. So now I feel like I'm unwanted EVERYWHERE. The things my mom says to me.....I've been hearing that since I was 8 years old. She said I was an accident waiting to happen. Imagine hearing that at 8 years old and not being able to do anything about it. She used to drive me to school piss drunk. I just want to stick my head in an oven and turn the gas on....I really need help right now.
I think my mom wanted me to fail at life just so she can say that she wasn't the only one....
My mother drinks a lot and says that I'm worthless, that I'm nothing, and that I'll never amount to anything. I play the piano, I write, I want to travel all over the world, and go to the University of Manchester in England. My grandparents were born in England and I'm just so tired of being here. I'm ashamed to call myself an American. (Yes, that's how bad it gets around my house. I've seen enough of America to know that I do NOT want to stay here anymore). I have more friends in Ireland than I do in the whole of the state I live in.
We are having money problems, we have to move, my mother has nobody else to talk to so I feel obligated to stay here and help her....my father is a drug addict and I'm not sure how to handle it. I just want to leave and to never come back here again. Every time I say I want to move to England, I have people from the UK saying, "Ew an American, a yankee, dont come here, we dont want you here" I'm dead serious. So now I feel like I'm unwanted EVERYWHERE. The things my mom says to me.....I've been hearing that since I was 8 years old. She said I was an accident waiting to happen. Imagine hearing that at 8 years old and not being able to do anything about it. She used to drive me to school piss drunk. I just want to stick my head in an oven and turn the gas on....I really need help right now.
I think my mom wanted me to fail at life just so she can say that she wasn't the only one....