My best friend, who I've been with for 2 years, is depressed to say the least. I love her more than anyone else, shes the first one ive ever loved without trying to, when shes sad, Im sad. When shes depressed, im depressed. When something goes wrong with her life, I wish with all of my might that I could take the problem away and deal with it for her. When she smiles, I couldnt be happier.
She hasnt had the best life, and shes now working full time to pay off a debt, and paying for her own food and clothes because her parent cand afford it. Shes tried to kill herself more times than I can count and i know she thinks about it all the time.
I really dont think shell ever pull herself out of her depression, and every time I hear about her problems, I cry. It ripps my heart out to hear about it, I love her more than anyone else and I cant help her. She cant even help herself. I literally have no influence over her, ive tried to help, she just pushes me away and always gives an excuse as to why she cant help herself.
If Im not there for her, no one else will be, and I love her, so of course I want to be there. But she makes being her friend so hard and i want to know if I should move on or not. I still plan on being her friend, I just want opinons as to weather i can find someone to fill that need she fills, though, as of late, shes not doing what she use to.
Any advice? Thanks.

But when I try to tell her how I feel about her, and how I feel about her problems, she gets upset with me and tells me that I only THINK I understand her, when I actually dont. (I probably understand better than anyone she knows, actually)
Shes been sent to a mental hospital twice, both for trying to kill herself at school. Has been perscribed medication, been foced to see therapists, and has been diagnossed with chronic depression, anorexia, and bulimia. Theres always an excuse as to why she cant help herself. "The medication makes me sick" or "the shrink is stupid" or "thats just stupid, im not trying that"
Its obvious shes not getting better, but I can't leave her. I also cant stick around watching her deterriorate, I'd die doing that. I just dont know what to do, and I cant find a balance.

But she CANT change. Shes too far gone. Ive tried getting her help, Ive tried everything I can think of. I just dont know what to do with her, or myself right now.
I have to be so careful what I say around her, if I say the wrong thing, shell go cut herself or worse. An ultimadum wont work. Talking to her wont work. I just need advice about ME, not her.

Thanks guys. I really appreciate this. Just totally moving on isnt an option, I cant do that. I just cant. Im all she has, and I love her more than I really understand, and when shes in a good mood, I'm so happy.
I just need to balance her and making new friends, and maybe find someone that i can be that close to again?

Thanks guys.

But as I've said, shes had LOADS of professional help. And the sad thing is, she really does want to die. The reason she hasnt yet is because someone always finds her. she tried drinking bleach, overdosing on meds, hanging herself, cutting herself, and every time, someone finds her because everyone knows that she cant be left alone for very long because she WILL try to kill herself. Its not a cry for attention anymore, its a serious need to die.