I've been feeling really down and depressed for a while now, I mean things just seem to be goin from bad to worse. Anyway ever since I left school a few weeks ago things seem to be getting really bad. I feel like I have no purpose in life and its weird but because I'm in the house most of the day on my own I feel sort of uncomfortable around people I used to be close friends with because my self harming has been getting worse and I just feel like everyones judging me. I told my boyfriend the other day about this and he was like I'm sure you'll be fine if you came out more often and I was thinking well I never actually get invited out.
Last night he said make sure your free tomorrow I want to take you out so I was like okay fine. He never called or texted me all day so I ended up texting him asking what he was up to and he said he was at his friends house and it just annoyed me so much. I thought I've been in all day waiting on him calling or texting but noo he never bothered to tell me he was going out with someone else instead. So I told him how I was feeling and that I'm actually driving myself insane being in the house all day and he was like well theats not my problem you need to make more friends and i was like well thanks for being so supportive that really makes me feel better about my issues and he was like your issues are hardly even that bad and I asked why he was being so insensitive and he was like its the truth though and i was like its really not i mean i swear its not normal to spend most of the day inside because you'r afraid any second your just going to randomly burst out crying and you feel like people are always looking at you and he didnt text back. Now I'm scared he's annoyed with me :(
Wow this is really long..thanks to anyone that actually takes the time to read all this rubbish haha
Last night he said make sure your free tomorrow I want to take you out so I was like okay fine. He never called or texted me all day so I ended up texting him asking what he was up to and he said he was at his friends house and it just annoyed me so much. I thought I've been in all day waiting on him calling or texting but noo he never bothered to tell me he was going out with someone else instead. So I told him how I was feeling and that I'm actually driving myself insane being in the house all day and he was like well theats not my problem you need to make more friends and i was like well thanks for being so supportive that really makes me feel better about my issues and he was like your issues are hardly even that bad and I asked why he was being so insensitive and he was like its the truth though and i was like its really not i mean i swear its not normal to spend most of the day inside because you'r afraid any second your just going to randomly burst out crying and you feel like people are always looking at you and he didnt text back. Now I'm scared he's annoyed with me :(
Wow this is really long..thanks to anyone that actually takes the time to read all this rubbish haha