Hey everyone, I'm new here but I needed somewhere to talk when I don't know anyone, and I know they won't judge me before knowing me, so I came here. I just have a problem, a serious problem, that I know I should stop, but right now I need convincing to do that because, well.. I don't want to. Just recently, I have ended up with only 1 good friend, a father who doesn't trust me, a boyfriend who thinks I hate him and won't listen to me when I tell him i don't hate him, and other family problems that are too personal to share. I didn't know what to do, and went into a state of depression. I went up to my room, took apart one of those disposable razors, cutting my hands up real bad trying to take it apart, and just started cutting. I can barely remember doing it, I just, I don't know, liked it. The next day at school the friends I had at the time saw what I had did, and I told them they were cat scratches from my new kitten, but they didn't believe me. I only told my closest friend and she called me a sicko and told me that she couldn't help me and what I did was stupid and I knew it. Everyone stopped talking to me, and eventually, I stopped talking to people. There was one girl who came up to me (she cut herself too) and asked me why I cut the top of my arms not my wrists, and I told her, it's because I don't do it to kill myself, and I don't want to kill myself, I just do it for the pain. She shrugged and walked away. I just have no one to turn to, and I need some suggestions on what to do.
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