I dunno whether this is the right place to put it or not. There are these two guys,... one i met along time ago i was in a bad place.. ( emotionally) and he was basicaly just after sex. I found his number a little over a month ago... and text him. He seems to have changed and really want a relationship.. we get on okay.. theres no major sparks.. but hes nice.. i would concider a relationship with him. He keeps saying stuff like i really like you.. i miss you ... texts me things like i need a hug.. and along with teh occasional dirty text. Now this was all good untill another guy came along. Who also knows this other guy who i text. we shall. call him dave. This new guy isnt good friends with dave but does talk to him occasionally. We get on great.. and we have loads of fun etc... and now hes telling me he cant stop thinkin bout me etc.. .. I feel really guilty becuase i know it will come back on me if i start showing back the same emotions. Even though i like him to. I dont know what to do about dave. ...
This new guy and me were chatting not even just a few minutes ago.. things got heated and i was all up for it.. untill i remembrd dave and told him no. He then said ' OFF NOW' as in my top? i know he was just jokin.. but then that suddenly really triggerd me back to when i was sexually abused as a child.. n now iv just got this horribe feelin inside n have no idea wtf im supposed to do.
I just want a relationship.. theres the rush n teh spark n all that i want with this new guy.. but i feel like id just be ditching dave and hurting him.. even though getting with him proberly isnt the best idea.
Urgh just really confused. x
This new guy and me were chatting not even just a few minutes ago.. things got heated and i was all up for it.. untill i remembrd dave and told him no. He then said ' OFF NOW' as in my top? i know he was just jokin.. but then that suddenly really triggerd me back to when i was sexually abused as a child.. n now iv just got this horribe feelin inside n have no idea wtf im supposed to do.
I just want a relationship.. theres the rush n teh spark n all that i want with this new guy.. but i feel like id just be ditching dave and hurting him.. even though getting with him proberly isnt the best idea.
Urgh just really confused. x
I wish i had saved all the tears you made me cry, so i could drown you in them