It seems I am now always unintentionally irritating my dad...
My dad used to be my best friend until I turned 15. Now all of a sudden, everytime I talk to him there's a chance of him yelling at me to get out of the room or speak nasty to me, sometimes driving me to tears when it does eventually happen. I mean, yea, everyone's allowed to be angry, but for me it's an everyday fear because sometimes he gets so angry at me he grabs me by the arms to drag me a bit painfully out of the room he's in before I even get the chance to do so myself. Nobody likes to be physically handled in a painful way, no matter how minimal or bad the pain is, I know that.
This has happened at least 4 times in the past 2 years. Just today I came home. My dad was happy and willing to hear about my day while he cooked. I decide out loud that I may not tell him, but he insists. So I blabber about it freely as I usually do, and all of a sudden he says I'm annoying him. So I, a bit confused and hurt, definitely decide not to tell him, and then when I tell him nevermind when he was me to return to telling him, he calls me stupid. Shot down again. then all of a sudden he booms at me to get out of the room. I stay, asking him why he's so angry at me, but all he says is I'm upsetting him. After yelling at me he says he thought we were pals. He thought we were pals? A bit two-faced, no?
So I still consider myself annoying to him, so in an attempt to hide my tears I go out of the kitchen as he says "Yea, go get out of the room..." accompanied by muttered words, and I retreat to listening to music on the computer to try and escape. I then hear intimidating footsteps rapidly behind my door. He rams into my room and unplugs my computer, turning it off instantly. As he goes out, I am dumbfounded. What have I done wrong?
I typed this on my mom's laptop, so you all know. He didn't spot it on my desk, luckily, so I was able to hide it under the covers with me, luckily with it not being seen.
What did I ever do to get this from who used to be my caring dad?
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My dad used to be my best friend until I turned 15. Now all of a sudden, everytime I talk to him there's a chance of him yelling at me to get out of the room or speak nasty to me, sometimes driving me to tears when it does eventually happen. I mean, yea, everyone's allowed to be angry, but for me it's an everyday fear because sometimes he gets so angry at me he grabs me by the arms to drag me a bit painfully out of the room he's in before I even get the chance to do so myself. Nobody likes to be physically handled in a painful way, no matter how minimal or bad the pain is, I know that.
This has happened at least 4 times in the past 2 years. Just today I came home. My dad was happy and willing to hear about my day while he cooked. I decide out loud that I may not tell him, but he insists. So I blabber about it freely as I usually do, and all of a sudden he says I'm annoying him. So I, a bit confused and hurt, definitely decide not to tell him, and then when I tell him nevermind when he was me to return to telling him, he calls me stupid. Shot down again. then all of a sudden he booms at me to get out of the room. I stay, asking him why he's so angry at me, but all he says is I'm upsetting him. After yelling at me he says he thought we were pals. He thought we were pals? A bit two-faced, no?
So I still consider myself annoying to him, so in an attempt to hide my tears I go out of the kitchen as he says "Yea, go get out of the room..." accompanied by muttered words, and I retreat to listening to music on the computer to try and escape. I then hear intimidating footsteps rapidly behind my door. He rams into my room and unplugs my computer, turning it off instantly. As he goes out, I am dumbfounded. What have I done wrong?
I typed this on my mom's laptop, so you all know. He didn't spot it on my desk, luckily, so I was able to hide it under the covers with me, luckily with it not being seen.
What did I ever do to get this from who used to be my caring dad?
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