I really don't know why I even come on here anymore, nor do I have the slightest idea why I should even talk to people anymore.
I came on here to feel accepted, ya know? But it feels like some people stop giving a shit about me way to easily. Except a couple of people. I don't just have this problem on here, I have it offline as well. Either my 'friends' are way too annoying, or they just stop acknowledging me. I've tried to branch out and talk to people I don't even know to try and start a friendship.. but they just look at me funny and laugh. Every single day that I come on here, or have to deal with school and such I feel lonely, to the point that it hurts, and I'm sick of feeling this way, and I can't do anything about it.
I really don't have that many friends online and offline.. Offline I only have like two people that I would consider friends.. and they're slowly drifting away from me, and apparently I heard that they're starting to talk shit about me behind my back. Online the people I normally talk all the time are all acting like I don't exist besides like two people. I don't even see the point of talking to anyone, or even living anymore.. Whats the point of being around when you're just going to be the loner that no one even considers taking the time to say hello to. I've tried everything, and feeling like I have no one I can really turn to besides a selective few is really starting to take it's toll on me. I have to deal with family issues, and now this constant loneliness. Is it wrong that I want to feel loved and cared about..? The only time I feel like I'm loved is when I'm with my dad and my step-mom, and that's once a year.. other than that I feel like some outcast that was put on earth so that people can get amusement out of how unloved, and worthless I am.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I keep getting suicidal thoughts... because the pain is way too overbearing.. and I've dealt with it for too long and I feel as if it's time that I just give up. The more I feel this way, the more I disregard what people say about me still having my life a head of me.. I mean I wouldn't call what I'm living a life.. ;l
I'm breaking down more and more each day.. and it's adding up..
Time to give up? Yes of course..
I came on here to feel accepted, ya know? But it feels like some people stop giving a shit about me way to easily. Except a couple of people. I don't just have this problem on here, I have it offline as well. Either my 'friends' are way too annoying, or they just stop acknowledging me. I've tried to branch out and talk to people I don't even know to try and start a friendship.. but they just look at me funny and laugh. Every single day that I come on here, or have to deal with school and such I feel lonely, to the point that it hurts, and I'm sick of feeling this way, and I can't do anything about it.
I really don't have that many friends online and offline.. Offline I only have like two people that I would consider friends.. and they're slowly drifting away from me, and apparently I heard that they're starting to talk shit about me behind my back. Online the people I normally talk all the time are all acting like I don't exist besides like two people. I don't even see the point of talking to anyone, or even living anymore.. Whats the point of being around when you're just going to be the loner that no one even considers taking the time to say hello to. I've tried everything, and feeling like I have no one I can really turn to besides a selective few is really starting to take it's toll on me. I have to deal with family issues, and now this constant loneliness. Is it wrong that I want to feel loved and cared about..? The only time I feel like I'm loved is when I'm with my dad and my step-mom, and that's once a year.. other than that I feel like some outcast that was put on earth so that people can get amusement out of how unloved, and worthless I am.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I keep getting suicidal thoughts... because the pain is way too overbearing.. and I've dealt with it for too long and I feel as if it's time that I just give up. The more I feel this way, the more I disregard what people say about me still having my life a head of me.. I mean I wouldn't call what I'm living a life.. ;l
I'm breaking down more and more each day.. and it's adding up..
Time to give up? Yes of course..
Real eyes, Realize, Real lies.
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