Why did I almost cry when my bestfriend told me that he is with the girl that he broke up with me for in the first place?

It took everything inside of me not to start crying.
Why do I still love him when he treated me like shit.

I wrote this in a bulletin on myspace.
I hope he reads it and knows its about him.


It sucks...

To know that I was never worth the truth.
That you felt like you had to lie to me this whole time.

That you played me.
That I loved you for everything that I thought you were.

That I gave you everything, and yet it was nothing to you.
That you are a complete ass.







That even though you have screwed me over more times then I can name, I still love you.

And it kills me.



I never expected anything from you other then to love me for who I am.
But I guess that is too much to ask.

I hope a boy can show me that not every male is just like you.
Because right now, I believe that every guy is.

Thank you Tyler.


I have decided Im going to kick him in the nuts next time I see him.

Okay, Ill kick one nut for me. And the other for you.

I cant help it:(
It sucks.
I dont want him in my mind.
Or in my heart.
But he finds his ways.
It makes me mad:mad:

I dont fucking know.
But I want to steal that ability.
I WANT THAT ABILITY.

I want to steal it from him.
So that he knows what its like to love someone that doesnt love him.
HMPH.

Jayson has become a HUGE asshole.
Hes so self centered now.
I dont know what happened.

Oh yes I do.

I wish I could meet a real guy.
Not someone so fake.

Yes.
I thought that was Jayson.
Specially since I was with him for over a year.
But holy frick.
Fuck that.

Nope.
Specially since hes with a disgusting girl.
Such a down grade.