Ok here's a little background story... I've liked this girl, Nikki, for about 2 months now I think. The first problem: she has a boyfriend. She's had two I think within those 2 months, I just didnt act fast enough when she was actually single -__-. She told me recently that she didnt think that she and her boyfriend would last much longer, and of course I feel bad for her, but it still opened up a little hope. But this leads to the 2nd problem: she didnt know.

Yeah, DIDNT know, as in she does now. She found out two days ago durring lunch at school. I was planning on telling her later, but one of our friends (who didnt know that I liked her, apparently it was kinda obvious at the moment) blurted it out. When that happened everything just went black and white for me. It took me by suprise, I probably sat there for 30 seconds before even looking at Nikki. She was just sitting there, reading the note I wrote her (we write notes to each other since she cant get on Myspace). When she looked up, we just kind of looked at each other for a minute. I was thinking "What do I say what do I say WHAT DO I SAY?!" But I didnt say anything. So she just started asking questions about things in the note. So now I'm like "...ok..." I could tell she wanted to ask me if I really did like her, even if it WAS obvious now.

I was wondering how she'd react when I (was originally planning to) tell her that afternoon, but when she found out at lunch she really didnt react at all. I dont know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, I think she might like me, too, she's acted like it before kinda. I wrote her another note explaining everything (that the friend was right, yadda yadda yadda), but I wont be able to give it to her until Monday, thanks to Thanksgiving -___-.

I honestly dont know what to do... I know that there's not much I CAN do since she still has a boyfriend and all. I also dont know if she'll treat me any different knowing that I have feelings for her... That's what I'm afraid of the most. Well, say they do break up, what do I do then? Wait to make sure she's not upset about the break up then ask her out? If they dont break up, well then what do I do? It'll be REALLY weird having her know I like her... Which is sad, because it shouldn't be weird.

So can somebody please tell me what I should do? Or better yet, shouldn't do? ANY help is greatly appreciated...

So just keep on acting like myself. Ok, I'll do that. Thanks:)

I really dont have many opportunities to talk one on one, other than through the notes, but those take a while to write. I'll see if I can pull her aside durring lunch monday or something. Like I said in the first post, if they break up I'll wait until she isn't really upset about it anymore then say something. You really think I have a chance?

Oh, and thanks a lot!:D

I didnt plan on it, I'm just gonna talk to her about it and wait and see what happens. Hopefully the talk does interfere with their relationship at all...

Honestly I dont know how to flirt so no worries there!

One of my friends just told me she thinks they broke up Tuesday morning, but I'll just talk to her Monday then give her some space.

Well, I didnt get a chance to talk to her about it, but I gave her the note, and she gave me one a while after. It said that she was going to break up with her boyfriend later (and she did after school) because he was being an ass to her. But then it also said that she thinks that we shouldn't date, because she says that I deserve better. I told her that was just BS, I dont deserve anything at all.

But I gave her another note, since that's apparently going to be the only we we can talk one on one. That means that I wont know what she thinks until tomorrow. So until then I'm stuck worrying about other things.

That is EXACTLY what she told me, that she doesn't want to get into a relationship because she's afraid she'll hurt me. It'll be easier to have a one to one conversation in person if we start eating lunch outside again, but I dont think we'll be doing that since its so cold now -__-. But I'll find a good time and talk. I'm not sure what I'm gonna say exactly right now, but I've always been pretty good at coming up with things as I go, so I'll try my best.

Thanks for the advice I really appreciate it:).


You didnt read one of my later messages, she broke up with him already. If she gets another before I make any progress, that's exactly what I'll do though.

Yeah, unless I do something before I really start thinking about it I'll end up not even trying. Its happened plenty of times lol. I should've talked to her today, since we had a free block (about an hour and 1/2) together, but I talked myself out of it. And when I think about it I feel a little... I dont know how to describe it, but I feel kinda shakey.

Now she's telling me that she doesnt want to date because she's "a bad person." I've done and said everything I know to convince her that she's not a bad person, that she's really an amazing person. But I cant get through to her. Regardless of wether she even considers dating me or not, I dont want a friend thinking about themselves like that. I know what its like to hate yourself for no reason, its miserable. I want to try to get her to stop thinking like that before I try getting her to go out with me.

But I might've wait one too many tomorrows. She says that she thinks this guy's gonna ask her out tomorrow, and she says that if he does she'll say yes. This has me scared, not because I'll have missed this chance, but because the guy's a douche! He's cheated on his last like 3 girlfriends, and I dont know if Nikki knows that. I dont know what I should say to her, or even if I can say anything in case he asks her out in the morning tomorrow. She's always been a little unstable, I'm afraid that if he hurts her, which I'm pretty much certain he will, she'll turn back to drugs again. I dont want that to happen.

But I dont know what to do...