when ur a little kid, everything seems so perfect. death seems so far away, u think ur gonna live forever, and nothing bad is ever gonna happen to u. u have so much fun and u don't mind having to go 2 school becuz all ur friends r there. but then everything starts to change... and that's what happened 2 me... ok... so, i was a normal, happy 8 year old until one day, my mom and dad took me for a walk. they bought me lots of toys and ice cream and stuff. it didn't seem unusual to me but then, they said we should sit down and talk. my dad said "Look, your mom and i have been together for a long time. Sometimes people need to take a break from each other. So we thought that maybe we would. Maybe just for a while. What do you think, honey?" I knew what that meant. Divorce. My friend's parents were divorced and she had to go to a therapist. Hundreds of thoughts flooded my mind. I knew that lots of people were divorced. I just never though that my parents would be too. "Honey, are you OK? You understand that we might not love each other but we still love you, right?" Yes, dad, yes, i know. "I'm fine." I said. I kept my tears in. You know that feeling you get when you want to cry, but you just don't? That was what i felt. I pretended to be OK. But i wasn't. After that, everything else in my life seemed to go wrong. Later on my dad got a girlfriend and they had a baby. It was hard for me because i'd always been an only child. After that my dog died. She was very young. Then my best friend ditched me. Then i started to fail in school. Then my bf raped me after i broke up with him. then i had a new bf and he raped me too. after that i never trusted anyone. my mom knows that they raped me and she took me to a therapist. The therapist didn't help at all. Now everyone thinks I'm some kind of messed up kid. And maybe I am. But every time I see my "friends" i just put a happy face on and laugh along with them. They don't know that I'm dying inside. I have so many problems in my life apart from those. I hate it. I wish could just lock myself at home forever. Everybody thinks my life is so easy but it's not. Everybody pretends to be my friend and they just use me. And all the boyfriends i have had, even the ones that didn't rape me, the didn't really love me. People are always pretending around me. I HATE IT.
*zoe :eek:[FONT="Fixedsys"][COLOR="Magenta"][/COLOR][/FONT]