My decisions are full of complications at the moment. Which is why I need your help.
Most of us know that I have a rather messed-up way of thinking and the world I create around myself isn't exactly pretty. We also know that my emotional wiring is rather screwed. Although I'm developing and have developed feelings for someone.
We've been good friends for awhile and I'm terrified of taking things further. I don't think it'd be right to expose him to the way I am, which would eventually happen if we got closer than we are.
And if things were to go badly, I'd feel humiliated, which is worse than death in my mind.
I've talked to him about how I feel, and that I may ask him out. He's already confirmed he'd say yes if that happened. I'm just not sure if I should.
Most people will say 'you have nothing to lose' but for me, it's a lot to lose. And I don't want to hurt him.
He's also a red-blooded male and most of us know that I could almost hate anything physical and sexual. I just don't want to waste his time...
I need help thinking about what to do. Usually I could just ignore these types of things but it's getting a tad harder.
I'm sorry if this made no sense. ;/
Most of us know that I have a rather messed-up way of thinking and the world I create around myself isn't exactly pretty. We also know that my emotional wiring is rather screwed. Although I'm developing and have developed feelings for someone.
We've been good friends for awhile and I'm terrified of taking things further. I don't think it'd be right to expose him to the way I am, which would eventually happen if we got closer than we are.
And if things were to go badly, I'd feel humiliated, which is worse than death in my mind.
I've talked to him about how I feel, and that I may ask him out. He's already confirmed he'd say yes if that happened. I'm just not sure if I should.
Most people will say 'you have nothing to lose' but for me, it's a lot to lose. And I don't want to hurt him.
He's also a red-blooded male and most of us know that I could almost hate anything physical and sexual. I just don't want to waste his time...
I need help thinking about what to do. Usually I could just ignore these types of things but it's getting a tad harder.
I'm sorry if this made no sense. ;/
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