You appear to be, well, normal, to me. We, humans, are social creatures. We thrive on social interaction. We shine and have the most fun when we're socializing. We have a need to be around people and to live our lives with other people, not just ourselves. When we're with people, we look at the good; we focus on having fun and living on the moment. But when we're alone we take a step back and look at the bigger picture. We consider life as a whole; we don't just strive to have the best time possible. When we're alone we're at our most reasonable and attentive state. Because of this, we look at what's really going on - reality. Because we're reasonable and attentive, because we look at everything- the good and the bad- we face our problems and future hardships. Those things are never fun, and they make everybody feel down. I suppose that explains the change from climax to upset. But such change is necessary from time to time, because while it does make us feel upset it puts us back into reality and allows us to make a reasonable plan. Though, being too upset is always counterproductive, so you should always try to look at the positive. When you're very upset, do something that makes you happy. Talk to somebody-be it on the internet, on the phone, or in person- who brings a smile to your face. While it's necessary to face the reality of things, it's ridiculous to go through the full burden of the sadness, so try to make yourself happy when you're down.

malevolent, show us your degree in psychology and counselling?

I'm like that too, which is why I think people I socialise with find it hard to accept my "illness" because I am positive and bouncy around them and I guess they'd find it hard to believe. I think I just thrive off being with people, for the company and I dunno, being part of something (even when I'm at work it's sort of like we're all in it together sort of attitude?)

I dunno if thats the same thing you're experiencing. It gets worse for me when I'm at home, especially in the evenings or when I'm left to my own devices... I don't think me and my mind have a healthy relationship

I tend to think too much. Maybe you're lonely?

If you have major depression, you must be a special program, either for themselves or help, let these feelings are suppressed. Emotions are caused by muscle vibration in different parts of the body.

Hello

The way you feel is only to be expected. You went through a very traumatic time during your depression, as does everyone who go through what you did. I myself have been in your position, but don't worry about it too much - it can be solved if you put your mind to it with little fuss. Just stay strong and don't worry about it.

Here's what I believe you should try for now; your pocketful of every day things that you carry around with you; wallet, keys, whatever - place with them something that shouldn't be there. Perhaps an odd marble or something. Anything that you'll notice. Let this become an everyday pocket item. Every time you reach into your pocket to take something out and you notice this item, I want you to think of three things that are going to happen and have a positive effect on you. I want you to tell yourself those three things. "I AM going to do well in college". Something like that. Then, I want you to put something on your bedside table or on the ceiling above your bed. Every day and night, tell yourself - I AM going to do well in something. The things that you normally doubt. As you do these things, think about them, and think positive. Instead of thinking "I can't do it", think about ways that you CAN do it. You'll be surprised how good a cure positive thinking can be for this sort of thing.

Next, the time that you spend alone, fill with different things. Take up drawing, reading, learning a language, working out - whatever, anything works so long as it gets you thinking and takes up time. Reading is a good one. This'll give you something different to think about instead of all the bad things that you're scared may happen.

You're right in saying that this may have something to do with your past depression, but it's merely the aftermath in my opinion. Try positive thinking. Don't tell yourself "I want this, I want that". Don't tell yourself "I'm not going to do this". Tell yourself "I AM going to get this. I WILL do that". Your confidence in your own beliefs will build, and pretty soon you'll start to become a very optimistic person when you're on your own.

If all else fails, then see your doctor, and ask to be put in touch with some form of therapist for a while. Your doctor will put you in touch with a specialist who will sort your problem with as little fuss as possible.

Best of luck

~Tenris

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