I feel unimportant and unloved, because it always seems like everyone is always having a better time than me. I envy the girls who can talk to a guy and not take a whole year just to get comfortable with him. I feel like that’s a bit of my problem, I’m just so uncomfortable with people. I have yet to decide what is appropriate to say, and what is inappropriate. So most often, I only do things I know that are appropriate. (Smile, say yes, say no, laugh a little etc.)
I do not want to seem repulsive, annoying or strange. I am not popular, however I’m not gonna lie, if I had more friends from that group I would feel more important.
I definitely do not feel my self-confidence is a major issue, maybe minor. I feel that I am beautiful, and I wouldn’t change much about how I look. I could even go far enough to say I actually expect people to think I am pretty. I am quite content with my grades I get in school. My clothes aren’t too expensive and do not have name brands written all over them, but I don’t think that should matter too much. I only wear eyeliner, but not much at all.
I am pretty much classified as ‘quiet’, I always have been. Not until I get comfortable with someone do I become an entirely different person. I don’t know what it is about some people, but I can never get comfortable with them. I’ve known some of these people since kindergarten. It happens much more often with boys. I don’t really care what girls think about me as much, I guess.
I can’t stick up for myself. Not that I get picked on much, really. When I do somehow, I usually just try to laugh it off but I’m sure some people can tell I’m embarrassed.
When we have group projects I feel like people don’t hear me when I ask a question. I’m not funny enough. They laugh with each other, and I’m so worried about getting my word in I don’t hear the joke. I’m not sure if they don’t realize, or they just don’t like me. Being unheard is probably my most dreaded feeling besides being embarrassed.
I cannot think of any past psychological reason why this might be, besides my Mom left one day when I was eleven and didn’t come back, leaving my Dad to raise me and me sister who is four years younger. I don’t think that could have much to do with it, but I believe that does somehow contribute to my daily stress because at times I have become jealous of people who talk about their great relationships with their Mothers while I never really had one, and when I did it wasn’t great. I don’t see my Dad too often because he works really long hours and sleeps most of the time he is home.
But otherwise, I just joined this site looking for some help with my problems, since I can’t find the answers myself. Actually writing this out has helped too, I think. :)
I do not want to seem repulsive, annoying or strange. I am not popular, however I’m not gonna lie, if I had more friends from that group I would feel more important.
I definitely do not feel my self-confidence is a major issue, maybe minor. I feel that I am beautiful, and I wouldn’t change much about how I look. I could even go far enough to say I actually expect people to think I am pretty. I am quite content with my grades I get in school. My clothes aren’t too expensive and do not have name brands written all over them, but I don’t think that should matter too much. I only wear eyeliner, but not much at all.
I am pretty much classified as ‘quiet’, I always have been. Not until I get comfortable with someone do I become an entirely different person. I don’t know what it is about some people, but I can never get comfortable with them. I’ve known some of these people since kindergarten. It happens much more often with boys. I don’t really care what girls think about me as much, I guess.
I can’t stick up for myself. Not that I get picked on much, really. When I do somehow, I usually just try to laugh it off but I’m sure some people can tell I’m embarrassed.
When we have group projects I feel like people don’t hear me when I ask a question. I’m not funny enough. They laugh with each other, and I’m so worried about getting my word in I don’t hear the joke. I’m not sure if they don’t realize, or they just don’t like me. Being unheard is probably my most dreaded feeling besides being embarrassed.
I cannot think of any past psychological reason why this might be, besides my Mom left one day when I was eleven and didn’t come back, leaving my Dad to raise me and me sister who is four years younger. I don’t think that could have much to do with it, but I believe that does somehow contribute to my daily stress because at times I have become jealous of people who talk about their great relationships with their Mothers while I never really had one, and when I did it wasn’t great. I don’t see my Dad too often because he works really long hours and sleeps most of the time he is home.
But otherwise, I just joined this site looking for some help with my problems, since I can’t find the answers myself. Actually writing this out has helped too, I think. :)