I give up, I just give up. All my life I've had depression and all my life I've had no friends. I'm just so sad. Whenever happiness is in reach something happens to bring me back down again. All I ask for is to be loved, to have a relationship that does't last a day or a week at the most. I feel so useless, worthless and such crap. I don't feel I deserve to live. All I do is hurt people and make a mess of things. I'm a failure. I barely eat, I barely speak, I barely move anymore I'm so depressed. I cut wich makes me weak seeing as I barely eat to make up for all the blood I lose. I've attempted suicide numerous times before, but they never worked. I feel like I'm ready to keep trying until I succeed. Nobody will truly miss me, they only say that to make me suffer more on this world. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I've got a lot of razorblades in my room, screaming at me to end it. I've got lots of painkillers, but not sure how that would work. I just feel so alone and useless to everybody I try to help. <<<<< Feeling like this right now. Live or die?
I accept all people for who they are. I am a female. I'm pansexual. Is how my brain works. I'm simply myself. :love1: