When I started school (age 4) my parents worked full time so my Mum asked her sister to look after me who said with no problems. OK so when you're a child little things bother you, like name calling, petty things keeping in mind I was four she used to make me cry by calling me names and she laughed and seemed to enjoy it, and when it was meal times when I didn't want to eat she'd say things to make me feel rubbish like
"I've spent a long time making that, are you going to throw it away? That's rude"
"Don't throw it away I spent ages making that be good eat it"
I couldn't leave unless I'd eaten and then I had to eat what her children had left.
I used to go home feeling ill and I'd be sick a lot to, we didn't know until I was 11 that she'd drip orange juice onto my food which I was alergic to and she knew that because she'd brag to other family members.
She used to take head lice from her childrens hair and put them in mine, I don't know why! She made me eat and then have her children call me for my weight and she made me feel so small my confidence hit the floor and I hated myself up until a year ago, when I was 11 and everyone found out she moved away taking the cousins who I concidered my sibblings, she ran away from what she did, I can't! I can't get her out of my head and she's in my mind I've lost the weight but the memories are there and she's ruined me, I feel broken and I don't understand why she hated me, does anyone have any advice on I can get her out of my head and out of my mind forever?
"I've spent a long time making that, are you going to throw it away? That's rude"
"Don't throw it away I spent ages making that be good eat it"
I couldn't leave unless I'd eaten and then I had to eat what her children had left.
I used to go home feeling ill and I'd be sick a lot to, we didn't know until I was 11 that she'd drip orange juice onto my food which I was alergic to and she knew that because she'd brag to other family members.
She used to take head lice from her childrens hair and put them in mine, I don't know why! She made me eat and then have her children call me for my weight and she made me feel so small my confidence hit the floor and I hated myself up until a year ago, when I was 11 and everyone found out she moved away taking the cousins who I concidered my sibblings, she ran away from what she did, I can't! I can't get her out of my head and she's in my mind I've lost the weight but the memories are there and she's ruined me, I feel broken and I don't understand why she hated me, does anyone have any advice on I can get her out of my head and out of my mind forever?