I know this post is long but please read it I need your help
When I was younger my dad and I were really close. We did everything together. Him and my mom had me when they were 17 and my mom was so mean to him. She was really hypocritical and she was just horrible. So they never got married and she wouldnt let me meet him until I was 3. My dad was always taking me out with his girlfriends and stuff and he never left me out. Then when I was 8 he met this girl named Tiffany and I really liked her. She was a great friend and my dad loved her. They moved in together and she started spending ALL of his money. He told me one night when he was driving me home that he would break up with her. That's when she told him he was pregnant and he asked her to MARRY HIM!! THey spent a LOT of money on the wedding and a few weeks before it she said that she lost the baby. After they got married my dad started being a jerk and never wanted to do anything unless it was play online games on the computer or it was something Tiffany wanted to do.
The schools that were where I lived were horrible so my dad let me use his address to go to the schools in his district. Last school year he decided that I couldnt use his address unless I lived with him. So I moved there and I couldnt stand his wife. She was a fat pig that only wanted my dad for herself and she didnt work but spent all of the money on herself. In the middle of the school year I was at track practice and I sprained my ankle. I tried calling everone and nobody would answer thier phone. I called Tiffany like 5 times and I was about to give up and just walk home with my ankle how it was. Then I found one of my friends and they offered me a ride. When I got home I found Tiffany sitting on her but in front of the TV eating cheetos with her phone right next to her. THey hadnt put any money in my account that morning so I didnt get to eat lunch or breakfast so I was hungry. I told Tiffany and she said to wait until my dad got home from work. I waited like three hours for him to come and when he got the tiffany asked him to go do something outside. H said hed be done in like five mins. Then when he finished Tiffany went out there and started making out with him. I was getting so irritated so when he came inside I had a little attitude. I knew I shouldt have but I was pretty mad. He asked me what was wrong and I wouldnt say anything so he told me to go to my room. I shut the door and I didnt know he was behind me and he said I slammed it in his face. He punched a hole through the door and pulled pieces off of it until there was nothing left but the hinges. I told him that I was done and that I was going home. So the next day I moved out of his house. He actually had the nerve to show up with his wife at my piano recital like a week later. I havent seen him since. I miss my family on his side and I miss all of my own friends. I keep telling myself that its all my fault and that I shouldt have been so stupid. Its tearing me apart. I cant stop having nightmares about it. Should I forgive him? I feel horrible because I know that Ill never be able to be friends with him because in the past almost year that ive been gone he has a new baby and hell never leave Tiffany. NObody I've talked to can give me an answer except to just let him go. I just cant though. WHAT DO I DO???
When I was younger my dad and I were really close. We did everything together. Him and my mom had me when they were 17 and my mom was so mean to him. She was really hypocritical and she was just horrible. So they never got married and she wouldnt let me meet him until I was 3. My dad was always taking me out with his girlfriends and stuff and he never left me out. Then when I was 8 he met this girl named Tiffany and I really liked her. She was a great friend and my dad loved her. They moved in together and she started spending ALL of his money. He told me one night when he was driving me home that he would break up with her. That's when she told him he was pregnant and he asked her to MARRY HIM!! THey spent a LOT of money on the wedding and a few weeks before it she said that she lost the baby. After they got married my dad started being a jerk and never wanted to do anything unless it was play online games on the computer or it was something Tiffany wanted to do.
The schools that were where I lived were horrible so my dad let me use his address to go to the schools in his district. Last school year he decided that I couldnt use his address unless I lived with him. So I moved there and I couldnt stand his wife. She was a fat pig that only wanted my dad for herself and she didnt work but spent all of the money on herself. In the middle of the school year I was at track practice and I sprained my ankle. I tried calling everone and nobody would answer thier phone. I called Tiffany like 5 times and I was about to give up and just walk home with my ankle how it was. Then I found one of my friends and they offered me a ride. When I got home I found Tiffany sitting on her but in front of the TV eating cheetos with her phone right next to her. THey hadnt put any money in my account that morning so I didnt get to eat lunch or breakfast so I was hungry. I told Tiffany and she said to wait until my dad got home from work. I waited like three hours for him to come and when he got the tiffany asked him to go do something outside. H said hed be done in like five mins. Then when he finished Tiffany went out there and started making out with him. I was getting so irritated so when he came inside I had a little attitude. I knew I shouldt have but I was pretty mad. He asked me what was wrong and I wouldnt say anything so he told me to go to my room. I shut the door and I didnt know he was behind me and he said I slammed it in his face. He punched a hole through the door and pulled pieces off of it until there was nothing left but the hinges. I told him that I was done and that I was going home. So the next day I moved out of his house. He actually had the nerve to show up with his wife at my piano recital like a week later. I havent seen him since. I miss my family on his side and I miss all of my own friends. I keep telling myself that its all my fault and that I shouldt have been so stupid. Its tearing me apart. I cant stop having nightmares about it. Should I forgive him? I feel horrible because I know that Ill never be able to be friends with him because in the past almost year that ive been gone he has a new baby and hell never leave Tiffany. NObody I've talked to can give me an answer except to just let him go. I just cant though. WHAT DO I DO???