Let me start off by saying this; I am sixteen, never been in a relationship, never been kissed and am very uneasy about dating.

In middle school I always wanted a boyfriend and I was very depressed. I got help and am completely better now and my life is mostly fantastic...except for one problem. My two best guy friends have crushes on me. I would always cuddle with them but I always thought of it as friend stuff and I didn't think they actually had feelings for me. One asked me out about a month ago and I turned him down, which lead to a bout of depression and cutting (he is now getting help and is a lot better). I was told by one of my other friends that the other one has been thinking of asking me out. They make their affections painfully obvious to a point where all of our friends knew about the crushes (except for me of course, I am oblivious). I don't want to hurt either of their feelings because I don't want the first one to get depressed again and the other one has only ever had one girlfriend. I love them both so much and I want to stay friends with them forever but things have gotten really awkward with them and I don't want to lead them on.

I would really appreciate anyone's help!