I'm 13. In year 9, doing GCSE's. I'm part of the weird group.
I'm also depressed. I've had several surgeries on my legs, one of them went wrong and I nearly had to have it amputated. The pain was unbelievable, and it still is - even though no one believes me...
But I can't remember a great deal of my life. I was shown a chat log; of my friend saying she'd commit suicide. I'd convinced her out of it - but that is something I would remember. I remember a surgery my distant cousin had (I'd never met him either), so I'd remember this.
I don't remember the summer between y7 and y8. It was before the surgeries. I remember being in an alley by mine, which isn't known for safety.
And now? I'm in pain. My side's hurt constantly and I nearly attacked my friend when she grabbed my wrists. About 6 months ago, I was diagnosed with anxiety. It's been nearly two years since the memory thing - and I've only just realized that I don't remember. I'm scared, and I can't tell anyone. They'd call me an attention-seeker or that I was over reacting.
I don't sleep either. Whenever I do, the pain gets worse (in my leg half of the time too..) and I wake up randomly and shaking.
Someone please tell me what to do. I'm scared - and I've never been this scared. It's affecting my schoolwork - and I want to do good in that. It's the thing I care about. I want more than anything to become a doctor - it's really one of the few thing that is keeping me alive, as I know it's the only thing that will make my family proud. I want to get this sorted and move on.
I've told my friend. She didn't care. I'm scared to tell anyone else... Help?
I'm also depressed. I've had several surgeries on my legs, one of them went wrong and I nearly had to have it amputated. The pain was unbelievable, and it still is - even though no one believes me...
But I can't remember a great deal of my life. I was shown a chat log; of my friend saying she'd commit suicide. I'd convinced her out of it - but that is something I would remember. I remember a surgery my distant cousin had (I'd never met him either), so I'd remember this.
I don't remember the summer between y7 and y8. It was before the surgeries. I remember being in an alley by mine, which isn't known for safety.
And now? I'm in pain. My side's hurt constantly and I nearly attacked my friend when she grabbed my wrists. About 6 months ago, I was diagnosed with anxiety. It's been nearly two years since the memory thing - and I've only just realized that I don't remember. I'm scared, and I can't tell anyone. They'd call me an attention-seeker or that I was over reacting.
I don't sleep either. Whenever I do, the pain gets worse (in my leg half of the time too..) and I wake up randomly and shaking.
Someone please tell me what to do. I'm scared - and I've never been this scared. It's affecting my schoolwork - and I want to do good in that. It's the thing I care about. I want more than anything to become a doctor - it's really one of the few thing that is keeping me alive, as I know it's the only thing that will make my family proud. I want to get this sorted and move on.
I've told my friend. She didn't care. I'm scared to tell anyone else... Help?
The world can be a Crazy place
[CENTER][LEFT]but only if you're in it Alone
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[CENTER][LEFT]but only if you're in it Alone
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