I need your opinion.
(And this is kinda a rant...)
Half a year back back, my mom had a mean car accident and she got in hospital for over 100 days. When she got out, my parents were arguing, like, massively. They had previously broken up in the past, when mom cheated on dad, then they got back together. Anyway, this + a bunch of other shit that happened to me, I was like ftw, overdosed and almost died. Almost.
Im not proud of it.
Anyway, when I was in hospital, mom came to see me, screamed at me that since I had tried to kill myself, I was ripping the family apart and it was all my fault. I tried to explain to her that I was only 14 and that I was under massive stress because of her and dad always arguing and pulling me into it, and dad was always out on the piss and I had to stay home and look after their kids, me being the eldest. Not to mention my mom coming so close to death. She basically bawled, and screamed at me that she was abandoning me.
And she did.. Then she reclaimed me a week later when the System was gobsmacked that someone would ever do this to their own child, and said something.
She dragged me home, and grounded me for trying to kill myself. Then she had the nerve to tell me that all the family problems are because of me.
Now, dads left her, she has no source of income, she can barely walk properly because of what the crash left her, and shes seriously in such a state. She'll bawl if she, say, wakes up late, or I dont cook her breakfast.
But I can go with my father, if I want.
But... My mom needs me more than she ever did, but the one time I needed her the most and she abandoned me, not to mention spread these awful stories about me to the rest of the family. So Im the family joke now.
What the hell do I do?
And Iv started cutting again, and I think one of them is infected. What do I do? I dont wanna show the doctors... I dont know what theyll do to me when they see them.
Please dont tell me im emo and flare up at me. I only want a bit of friendly advice.
(And this is kinda a rant...)
Half a year back back, my mom had a mean car accident and she got in hospital for over 100 days. When she got out, my parents were arguing, like, massively. They had previously broken up in the past, when mom cheated on dad, then they got back together. Anyway, this + a bunch of other shit that happened to me, I was like ftw, overdosed and almost died. Almost.
Im not proud of it.
Anyway, when I was in hospital, mom came to see me, screamed at me that since I had tried to kill myself, I was ripping the family apart and it was all my fault. I tried to explain to her that I was only 14 and that I was under massive stress because of her and dad always arguing and pulling me into it, and dad was always out on the piss and I had to stay home and look after their kids, me being the eldest. Not to mention my mom coming so close to death. She basically bawled, and screamed at me that she was abandoning me.
And she did.. Then she reclaimed me a week later when the System was gobsmacked that someone would ever do this to their own child, and said something.
She dragged me home, and grounded me for trying to kill myself. Then she had the nerve to tell me that all the family problems are because of me.
Now, dads left her, she has no source of income, she can barely walk properly because of what the crash left her, and shes seriously in such a state. She'll bawl if she, say, wakes up late, or I dont cook her breakfast.
But I can go with my father, if I want.
But... My mom needs me more than she ever did, but the one time I needed her the most and she abandoned me, not to mention spread these awful stories about me to the rest of the family. So Im the family joke now.
What the hell do I do?
And Iv started cutting again, and I think one of them is infected. What do I do? I dont wanna show the doctors... I dont know what theyll do to me when they see them.
Please dont tell me im emo and flare up at me. I only want a bit of friendly advice.
[CENTER]Being born is like being kidnapped. And then sold into slavery. [/CENTER]
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[CENTER]“I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.”[/CENTER]
[CENTER]-Edgar Allan Poe [/CENTER]
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[CENTER]“I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.”[/CENTER]
[CENTER]-Edgar Allan Poe [/CENTER]