since ive been at uni i have become best friends with this guy, and although i always had a feeling i knew i may be bi-sexual, i unexpectedly began to gain feelings for him. He is straight, but we have and odd friendship where we would often share a bed and when we were drunk things like holding hands and cuddling in bed would happen. But the next day nothing would be spoke of about it, just our other male friends taking the mick out of us holding hands on the walk home from the pub lol. These kind of things just made my feelings for him much deeper and he became the thing on my mind constantly it drives me mad. one night i got really drunk and decided to tell him i thought i might be bi-sexual and cant really remember what was said back to me unfortunately, however i remember another time where we were drunk in his room i asked if he was bi or gay because and he said no, but proceeded to kiss me =/. The next day nothing was spoke about there was another event where we cuddling and he told me that when hes with me he doesn't need a girlfriend. we also bicker like a couple and often row over nothing. When i did confront him he told me he doesn't remember and doesn't know why he does things like hold my hand etc..after that we never did the cuddling in bed of hold hands and he became kinda distant in that sense but we were still best buds. i just wish i didn't feel for him this way but i cant seem to let go as i cant forget the close moments we had, but it hurts as he is a ladies man and as his best bud im constantly being told about all these girls he's sleeping with. Its torture to hear. but i cant declare my feelings for him as it would ruin our friendship as i know he doesn't feel the same, Thank you for reading i know there's not much advice that can be given i just wanted to share this with someone as its eating me up.