My life was easy as a young child, as it usually is for most people but when I hit 12 years old I was sexually assaulted and almost raped. I received no counselling or therapy and about 3 years after this experience I started being physically and verbally abused at home. It made it hard for me when everything started falling down around me, me family was falling apart my pet dog (who was my best friend) died which crushed me so badly that I ended up losing all of my friends.
It was only natural that I started cutting myself and abusing alcohol and soon after started taking weed and shrooms and I spiraled downwards from there and ended up taking things I didn't even know the name of. I found some new friends who are better than the ones I had before, I know now that taking all those drugs was a dangerous path to take, I still smoke weed occasionally and drink a couple times a month.
I still cut myself at every couple of days.
My mum found weed in my room and now hates everything about me. Then my best friend told me she was raped, after months of helping with therapy and pressuring my brain to revisit what happened to me when I was younger, turns out she was lying anyway.
I'm trying to help myself and get help from my friends but I find it so difficult.
I'm just constantly unhappy, and my mind is filled with suicidal thoughts. I just want to know if my life is as bad as it feels to me.
Any advice?
It was only natural that I started cutting myself and abusing alcohol and soon after started taking weed and shrooms and I spiraled downwards from there and ended up taking things I didn't even know the name of. I found some new friends who are better than the ones I had before, I know now that taking all those drugs was a dangerous path to take, I still smoke weed occasionally and drink a couple times a month.
I still cut myself at every couple of days.
My mum found weed in my room and now hates everything about me. Then my best friend told me she was raped, after months of helping with therapy and pressuring my brain to revisit what happened to me when I was younger, turns out she was lying anyway.
I'm trying to help myself and get help from my friends but I find it so difficult.
I'm just constantly unhappy, and my mind is filled with suicidal thoughts. I just want to know if my life is as bad as it feels to me.
Any advice?