My mom kicked me out of my own house on monday. It got to the point where she started to pick her new boyfriend over me. They've only been together for a month.
Ever since she divorced my step dad, she changed. We got kinda close, but then she got a boyfriend named Greg. He was28 and shes 37. They were disgusting together. They would always have sex and I was able to hear EVERYTHING> it was disgusting and uncomfortable. but she didnt care... then they broke up just two months ago and now shes dating this new guy named aldo. and hes the reason why i am not allowed in my home... i am currently living with my boyfriend of two years, but our relationship isnt going very good right now either...
so now i am stuck in a world on my own with nowhere to go(besides his house) . but at his house isnt where i want to be...
i feel so alone right now. and it breaks my heart because my mom kicked my older brother out when he was 18, hes 20 now and i havent seen him since he left. i am only 16, i will be 17 in august and i cant imagine life without my mom. I have always beens so loyal to her, so i dont understan how she can just kick me out like this and say that i was the one who deserved it... what did i deserve? if she didnt want any kids then why did she have them? for the past three years ive felt like a burden to her and ive threatened to leave her, and she didnt care... i didnt either, but now that i am actually gone, i feel lost. i cannot depend on my boyofriend and his family forever, although that seems to be what is happening right now.
i wish she would take me back but i know she wont especially since i told my grandma when she told me not to. but i had no other choice... now everyone has disowned my mom because of what she has done to me... at first it wasnt a big deal when she did it to my older brother because hes money hungry and abuses everyone in the family. but the fact that she did it to me drives everyone crazy, i am not perfect, but i was never a bad child, always maintained my grades, never really got into any trouble or anything. i just eneded up without a father and a dead beat mother... i never thought my life would have gotten any worse because it was going so goood..... but now that she has a boyfriend i am not priority anymore and now she has lost me and she doesnt care... should i care? i love my mom because shes my mom... she couldve made my life worse than it is but she didnt... but she didnt necessarily try to make it any better. i dont know what to do... i just feel alone right now and im not sure what i should do or what i need to do?????:(
Ever since she divorced my step dad, she changed. We got kinda close, but then she got a boyfriend named Greg. He was28 and shes 37. They were disgusting together. They would always have sex and I was able to hear EVERYTHING> it was disgusting and uncomfortable. but she didnt care... then they broke up just two months ago and now shes dating this new guy named aldo. and hes the reason why i am not allowed in my home... i am currently living with my boyfriend of two years, but our relationship isnt going very good right now either...
so now i am stuck in a world on my own with nowhere to go(besides his house) . but at his house isnt where i want to be...
i feel so alone right now. and it breaks my heart because my mom kicked my older brother out when he was 18, hes 20 now and i havent seen him since he left. i am only 16, i will be 17 in august and i cant imagine life without my mom. I have always beens so loyal to her, so i dont understan how she can just kick me out like this and say that i was the one who deserved it... what did i deserve? if she didnt want any kids then why did she have them? for the past three years ive felt like a burden to her and ive threatened to leave her, and she didnt care... i didnt either, but now that i am actually gone, i feel lost. i cannot depend on my boyofriend and his family forever, although that seems to be what is happening right now.
i wish she would take me back but i know she wont especially since i told my grandma when she told me not to. but i had no other choice... now everyone has disowned my mom because of what she has done to me... at first it wasnt a big deal when she did it to my older brother because hes money hungry and abuses everyone in the family. but the fact that she did it to me drives everyone crazy, i am not perfect, but i was never a bad child, always maintained my grades, never really got into any trouble or anything. i just eneded up without a father and a dead beat mother... i never thought my life would have gotten any worse because it was going so goood..... but now that she has a boyfriend i am not priority anymore and now she has lost me and she doesnt care... should i care? i love my mom because shes my mom... she couldve made my life worse than it is but she didnt... but she didnt necessarily try to make it any better. i dont know what to do... i just feel alone right now and im not sure what i should do or what i need to do?????:(