I'm a junior in high school and I really like this girl, J. But the thing is, I haven't really seen her since 8th grade. It was very obvious that we liked each other. She hugged me alot, I went over her house sometimes, and she was pretty much the only person I ever had physical contact with. He would lean on each other and hug and spend a lot of time together and whatnont. From the end of 8th grade to the middle of 9th grade, I was in a toxic relationship. I didn't like the toxic girl, I liked J, but I couldn't bring myself to say it, so I dated the other girl who confessed to me. For a bit less than a year I put up this facade. I still talked to J for a while, and she told me she cried about me dating the toxic girl. A couple months after I broke up with the toxic girl, I realized I liked J again. It festered for a really long time, from end of 9th grade to early 11th grade, before I finally tried to talk to her again. It worked, and after a few days, at night, and with convincing from a friend, I laid it all out to her. The logical part of me all along knew that she didn't like me anymore, but my emotional side would not have it. She, of course, rejected me.
All this time, before that, people told me to tell J I liked her, that I'd feel better.
I did, for a few weeks. But I ran into her a few weeks ago, and she was the exact same as I remember her. It hurt so much, the work I was doing was noticeably slowed down and the person I was helping commented on it. I chalked it up to being tired.
The day after, I tried to reach out again. I asked if we could be friends again, hoping to get closer, and she kinda dodged the question, saying "were we not before? lol"
We talked for like 5 hours that day, but haven't done that since. I think it was because we were reminiscing and catching up. You can only do that so much.
I realized a few days later that she never was the one to start conversations.
I really don't know what to do. Should I be up front and tell her again, ask her if she wants to come over some time, try to move on (and if yes, what do I do?), try to spark more conversations?
It still hurts, I still really long for her, and I've done everything people have told me. Nothing worked. Any help is appreciated.
All this time, before that, people told me to tell J I liked her, that I'd feel better.
I did, for a few weeks. But I ran into her a few weeks ago, and she was the exact same as I remember her. It hurt so much, the work I was doing was noticeably slowed down and the person I was helping commented on it. I chalked it up to being tired.
The day after, I tried to reach out again. I asked if we could be friends again, hoping to get closer, and she kinda dodged the question, saying "were we not before? lol"
We talked for like 5 hours that day, but haven't done that since. I think it was because we were reminiscing and catching up. You can only do that so much.
I realized a few days later that she never was the one to start conversations.
I really don't know what to do. Should I be up front and tell her again, ask her if she wants to come over some time, try to move on (and if yes, what do I do?), try to spark more conversations?
It still hurts, I still really long for her, and I've done everything people have told me. Nothing worked. Any help is appreciated.