Tired

    • Tired

      I'm so tired of wanting to sleep all day,
      I am so tired of this numbness;
      I'm so tired of thinking I'm getting ok
      and then fall back into the sadness

      I'm so tired of being constantly hungry,
      but not to eat because I'm scared;
      I'm so tired of wanting someone to hug me,
      and then remember that there's no one there

      I'm so tired of hating myself for not writing,
      I'm so tired of feeling worthless;
      I'm so tired of always fighting, with
      this choking feeling of hopelessness

      I'm so tired of being sick of my life,
      but also not to wanna die;
      I'm so tired of being happy and laugh,
      and then suddenly start to cry

      I want to pull myself together,
      I want to be again inspired;
      I want to finally get better,
      But I'm just so tired



      Okay, so I'm pretty sure I messed up the grammar in this poem, so sorry about that,
      but I just had to get it off my chest and I couldn't find better words to describe what
      I'm feeling right now.


      #bleedink