I don't know if this is allowed as a post topic, but I'll try to be as SFW as possible anyway.

Technically, this isn't a sexuality post, but it seems like the closest area to the topic and I don't really know where to go online to talk about this.

I've had a transformation fetish (specifically animal transformation) for as long as I can remember (although I didn't realise that's what it was until recently). I've been very ashamed of both the fetish and the general stigma around it. I have no clue when it started, but I do know i started engaging with TF content with YouTube compilations, mostly of art taken from other sites. I've recently moved to furry sites, using SFW modes and have actually begun to enjoy interacting with the furry fandom in general.

I guess I am just really confused on why I am 'like this', I don't really know what part of Transformation i enjoy. I've always hated even the idea of pornography, and anything sexual in TF stories/art usually turns me off, which has kinda led me to believe that I'm an asexual, or aroace. No one online seems to be in the same situation as me, and so I frequently feel weird and like there's something wrong with me. I've only really been able to talk to one person about stuff like this, and even then they don't have a TF fetish, and due to most of the internet being either completely SFW, or 18+ only (which i get) I generally have never talked about it to anyone that really understands TF.

I'm very lost at the moment, trying to figure out who I am as a person, and this is all really confusing. Has anyone had similar experiences?

I'm not harming myself, far from it, but I guess the whole point was that I just wanted to kind of get this out of my head and maybe get some advice or something. It's all really confusing and i guess i just wanted someone to hear me since I'm far too shy of asking about it IRL