I am 20 and am new tot he forum. Its actually the first forum i have ever written a thread in. I am more into myspace and photoshop so i dont know if i am in the right place but i will find out soon. I am extremely independant and have two jobs live on my own blah blah blah ia lso go to school. I have always found myself to have various guys in order to avoid loneliness. I dont sleep with every single one but i kinda cling on to them to not stay alone. They end up falling in love with me and losing it when they find out that i dont want an actual relationship i know it seems horrible but i am in reality a person that many have said has a very good heart. I dont mean to hurt anyone i just cant stand being alone. I recently moved to this city about 4 years ago and still ma having a hard time adapting. I dont really have a group of friends to occasionaly hang out with only a few i go to clubs with sometimes. I recently left my ex boyfriend because he was irresponsible and would always let me down i felt as if i was HIS mom. i hated it.. but now that he is gone i feel extremly lonely and depressed. I feel worthless and ugly. I feel as if i will never find someone to love and that will lvoe me back. I feel i am decent looking and i know thats not the issue but i have only been doing this for two weeks and i am already going crazy. I wish my family was closer but their not its a disaster... someone please help i dont want to run to that mess of a relationship i want to find a good guy or be able to be by myself and be happy.....



Thanks for reading every one i am looking forward to the responses.

Thanks Anna i actually have a dog he is my baby and a kitty dont get me wrong it definetly helps but i still feel this way thanks for your kind workds

Yes definelty Sam i am still getting used to everythong so just keep up wit me. I should have completed my profile by the time u read this