well... how to begin... ahh... here... don't run away from your problems... instead... fight them... i know it's cliched... but it actually works... now you can't go back and change what's happened... if you could... i would ask for your help on a few things... all i can really suggest is that you start fresh... without running... turn as much as you can around... talk to your boyfriend and find out if he was just using you... talk to your dad and tell him how what he does makes you feel... talk to your dad about your nana... the memories should help you to keep her in your heart... and call social services on your mom... or the cops next time...

and if you EVER need someone to talk to... don't be afraid to pm me...

-alex