what if this storm ends?
and i don't see you
as you are now
ever again
It feels like it has been forever - I hope you know that.
I didn't mean this; none of it to happen.
I didn't expect it, either.
I've always been let down
by life,
by people,
by past friends,
by anybody that could hurt me.
But you're different,
and you don't even realize it.
You don't bask in the amazingment that is you.
You don't see it.
But I do.
And I make it one of my tasks to remind you
as I often do.
And you make sure I'm aware that you already know this;
you're already knowing of this because I've told you.
But what if I asked you if you believed it,
if you believed me?
would your answer still hold the same tone,
or would it be changed from then on?
Changes happen.
It's a feeling;
when you realize things will never be the same
ever again.
For the better or for the worse.
i chase my blood from
brain to thumped heart
until I'm out of
breath for trying
Butterfly catching days.
Sitting under starlight until dawn.
Above the fire in the misty cold.
These days were so close.
I can almost touch them
with my nine year old
tender hands.
You were the first friend I knew.
You were the first one that taught me what love was.
We had fun.
We talked.
We had more fun.
I adored you.
You cherished me,
but were annoyed at the same time.
We were different.
We grew apart.
I remember when you were nine and I was the same.
When we got lost and had to find our way out.
It was the
f
o
r
e
s
t
.
We were never the same.
My feelings of longing for you and adoring you haven't shattered,
but I'm afraid only your annoyance is what remains.
I can't change what you've become,
but I can wish.
Broken dreams.
I'll never know you again.
the one on the corner you said frightened you
it was too dark and too large to find your soul in
Abandonment.
It's so bittersweet.
I've never known what to make of it, hon-est-ly.
But you showed me the worst of its cru-el-ty.
You were everything I needed,
you were everything I ever wanted,
you were the thing I clinged to in my
darkest hours.
But lies can only last so long.
Until eventually the truth must be heard.
And then it truely all comes falling
d
o
w
n
.
And I didn't know what to think.
You held all the answers
and I never was given a peak.
You have drained me,
and left me broken.
You're the reason I don't
trust.
Why did you lie?
Why didn't you ever care?
I was just there.
I will never forget
and I will never forgive.
You scattered my life.
You made it incomplete.
It used to be so neat.
But not anymore.
I held on to so much,
and you made me let it go.
I held on to you so much,
and you made me let you go.
I didn't want to.
Even when I knew the odds were against me.
Even when I knew you didn't care.
Even when I knew it all.
You made me let go.
No time, just letting go.
Where you used to be,
held in my tight grasp
is a shadow.
It's your shadow.
You were everything I needed,
everything I wanted.
Bittersweet.
I never got it hon-est-ly.
just for a minute
the silver forked sky
lit you up like a star
that i will follow
Maybe I'll never believe again.
Or maybe someone will change that.
Changes;
for the better for the worse.
But la-te-ly all I've been wishing
and hoping and praying and dreaming
are on
broken dreams.
They will never happen.
They will never present themselves.
But they're still there,
in the very back of my mind.
I can still wish,
just not too hard.
I'm used to disappointment.
But I don't want to relive it.
Still there,
forever.
I am what I am.
Nobody can change that.
They still try.
I've had people,
so very many people,
come into my life.
They don't generally stay for a long time.
I'm a loner through and through.
I like it best that way in blunt
hon-est-y.
Endings.
Ending.
There are endings.
They're ending.
This is ending.
Bittersweet ending.
• • •
a minute ago
you looked alone
stop waving your arms
you're safe and dry
breathe in and drink
up the winter sky
written work credited to me.
lyrics credited to snow patrol's the lighten strike.
and i don't see you
as you are now
ever again
It feels like it has been forever - I hope you know that.
I didn't mean this; none of it to happen.
I didn't expect it, either.
I've always been let down
by life,
by people,
by past friends,
by anybody that could hurt me.
But you're different,
and you don't even realize it.
You don't bask in the amazingment that is you.
You don't see it.
But I do.
And I make it one of my tasks to remind you
as I often do.
And you make sure I'm aware that you already know this;
you're already knowing of this because I've told you.
But what if I asked you if you believed it,
if you believed me?
would your answer still hold the same tone,
or would it be changed from then on?
Changes happen.
It's a feeling;
when you realize things will never be the same
ever again.
For the better or for the worse.
i chase my blood from
brain to thumped heart
until I'm out of
breath for trying
Butterfly catching days.
Sitting under starlight until dawn.
Above the fire in the misty cold.
These days were so close.
I can almost touch them
with my nine year old
tender hands.
You were the first friend I knew.
You were the first one that taught me what love was.
We had fun.
We talked.
We had more fun.
I adored you.
You cherished me,
but were annoyed at the same time.
We were different.
We grew apart.
I remember when you were nine and I was the same.
When we got lost and had to find our way out.
It was the
f
o
r
e
s
t
.
We were never the same.
My feelings of longing for you and adoring you haven't shattered,
but I'm afraid only your annoyance is what remains.
I can't change what you've become,
but I can wish.
Broken dreams.
I'll never know you again.
the one on the corner you said frightened you
it was too dark and too large to find your soul in
Abandonment.
It's so bittersweet.
I've never known what to make of it, hon-est-ly.
But you showed me the worst of its cru-el-ty.
You were everything I needed,
you were everything I ever wanted,
you were the thing I clinged to in my
darkest hours.
But lies can only last so long.
Until eventually the truth must be heard.
And then it truely all comes falling
d
o
w
n
.
And I didn't know what to think.
You held all the answers
and I never was given a peak.
You have drained me,
and left me broken.
You're the reason I don't
trust.
Why did you lie?
Why didn't you ever care?
I was just there.
I will never forget
and I will never forgive.
You scattered my life.
You made it incomplete.
It used to be so neat.
But not anymore.
I held on to so much,
and you made me let it go.
I held on to you so much,
and you made me let you go.
I didn't want to.
Even when I knew the odds were against me.
Even when I knew you didn't care.
Even when I knew it all.
You made me let go.
No time, just letting go.
Where you used to be,
held in my tight grasp
is a shadow.
It's your shadow.
You were everything I needed,
everything I wanted.
Bittersweet.
I never got it hon-est-ly.
just for a minute
the silver forked sky
lit you up like a star
that i will follow
Maybe I'll never believe again.
Or maybe someone will change that.
Changes;
for the better for the worse.
But la-te-ly all I've been wishing
and hoping and praying and dreaming
are on
broken dreams.
They will never happen.
They will never present themselves.
But they're still there,
in the very back of my mind.
I can still wish,
just not too hard.
I'm used to disappointment.
But I don't want to relive it.
Still there,
forever.
I am what I am.
Nobody can change that.
They still try.
I've had people,
so very many people,
come into my life.
They don't generally stay for a long time.
I'm a loner through and through.
I like it best that way in blunt
hon-est-y.
Endings.
Ending.
There are endings.
They're ending.
This is ending.
Bittersweet ending.
• • •
a minute ago
you looked alone
stop waving your arms
you're safe and dry
breathe in and drink
up the winter sky
written work credited to me.
lyrics credited to snow patrol's the lighten strike.
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