Recently i've more or less stopped eating and i've started spending 2-3 hours at the gym every day, i'll excercise until i feel sick or am in severe pain.
I've been told i could have anorexia but i'm perfectly happy with my figure, i want to tone up a little but not lose weight. I mean I do have days when i look in the mirror and feel really fat, who doesn't but then i see my younger sister and feel sick at how thin she is and tell myself i never want to be like that but i'm not so sure.
I take a medicine to replace some vital vitamins which restores my health and stops me from collapsing but i'm not sure what i'm doing is good for me??

I do have a workout plan, my fitness instructor gave me one but sometimes i just really badly want to impress him so much i go straight for my target in one sessions instead of doing it in stages over 4 weeks hence why i feel so much pain.

omfgidc wrote:

that's really not going to help. it isn't worth it.

your health > impressing anyone.

I know you're right and i suppose i know i should stop but i just really can't help it.
It might help if i explain what triggered this in the first place.
I had a bad run of boyfs and started to become ill with stress and stopped eating as much i eventually found another lad who i loved to bits but he moved away for his career and he's only spoke to me once since to wish me a happy birthday. I was in pieces when he left cause he was a close mate as well. So already having problems with eating, i stopped altogether. I began to think if i toned up a little, nothing extreme just some mild exercise, maybe i'd have better luck with lads. I began to notice how much exercising was making me forget him so i started to go to the gym more and more often. I got an instructor to draw me up a plan and he was just so nice. Not just looks but personality and i thought that if i could just maybe reach them targets then i could impress him. It's stupid and i know that but i just can't stop. I feel sick when i try to eat and i go mad if i don't exercise because i start to think i'm unfit or just break down in tears.

I can't really take offence when you're probably speaking the truth,
but thanks hun xx

I'll try it and let you know how it works. And again thanx aload x

Thanks for the advice everyone.
My friends all think i'm just doing it for attention. All they said was "haven't you got enough attention already being perfect without things like this?" It's so frustrating i'm not fucking perfect they just think that my life must be great because i get top grades, loads of friends and attention from lads but its stupid. I'm sick of pretending everything is ok around them and being the happy one whos always smiling and laughing cause i don't feel like that. As for school guidance councillor(sp?) I've already left school.