More of a question to you guys:
Have you been bullied?
Did such a bullying make you mad?
If so, what did you do about it?
Looking back, do you think you did the right thing and why.
I'll even answer myself!
Have you been bullied? Yes, for the majority of my school life.
Did such a bullying make you mad?
Indeed, my life was hell. In the younger years, many tears were shed and thoughts of revenge. Mid years I just dealt with it. In the last few years of HS, I stopped caring, grew a thick emotional shell, and felt better.
If so, what did you do about it?
When I was younger (6-8th grade) I had the typical anger and sadness. 9th I avoided most of it by skipping classes. 10-11th was the worst. During those years I became the monster I so hated. But worse, the effect of years of peer abuse finally recoiled and I am ashamed to say I became a tyrant many many times worse then any individual indecent. It was made more profound by the fact that during those years I was in a school with a small class. By that time I had grown my shell so to speak. There was a kid in that class that I think went out of his way to make himself a target. I was probably a bigger jerk to him then anyone ever was to me.
Looking back, do you think you did the right thing and why.
No, I am ashamed. I turned my feelings of rage and pent up aggression into a mental weapon to be used on others. What made it worse is that unlike typical bullies that will just call you names and such, I was the type that picked at the very fiber of peoples being until they came undone.
I have a theory, it goes like this: If you are picked on in your younger years you are more likely to become a monster in your later years. Bullying just creates more of the same.
For me, I became the thing I hated most. I regret it to this day.
Why do people seem to have the need to take things put on them and in turn dump it on another? Why do people bully in the first place? To make themselves feel better? To fit in? Maybe some just enjoy others pain.
After awhile I just stopped caring as I said. Nothing bothered me. Insults, rejections, etc, nothing even made me feel bad. I think that is another bad thing that can happen. We learn to give ourselves shields to protect us. The problem is such shields can have the effect of loss of emotions and a bitter outlook on life.
You wonder why the kid in the corner does not trust anyone? You wonder why the outcast becomes the monster? Well, I think most of you know the answer.
In EXTREME cases things like Columbine happen. They are rare, but they do occur. Some punk thought it would be funny to push "bobby" over the edge. Shame nobody's laughing.
People seem to get off on putting others down. Highschool is not for learning. At least not academically. It is for social experimentation. There is a hierarchy and so called food chain that evolves in schools. For some, it is a great time of friends and parties. For others, not so much.
So, I ask you all this: Next time you want to pick on somebody for being different or odd, think twice. Sure, you may get away with it. Sure, it might gain you popularity points in certain circles. It also might get you killed if you go to far.
Another thing to ask yourself is how would you feel. Silly I know, since your the one dealing it out. But switch the situation. Not so funny now huh?
Maybe this is just me ranting. Maybe I am not making any sense at this point. But coming from the position of being the weird kid, I hope it gives you a new perspective.
Nerds, Geeks, etc all are people. Those names are just labels other people give. Does being a geek make that person not have feelings?
In my mind, that person who was picked on will:
A. deal with it and suffer
B. commit suicide
C. turn into a bully themselves
D. flip out and cause a real problem
For me, it was C. I refuse to commit suicide. I refuse to sit and suffer. I am not a killer and have no want to harm others physically.
Anyways, I have since graduated HS. Looking into college and stuff. Hopefully it won't suck. My views on life have changed drastically over time. I am a different person then back then. Looking back it all seems kind of like a sick joke.
If you read all this, props to you. If not, oh well. These are just my thoughts. Take them however you like.
-- Mr. C
Have you been bullied?
Did such a bullying make you mad?
If so, what did you do about it?
Looking back, do you think you did the right thing and why.
I'll even answer myself!
Have you been bullied? Yes, for the majority of my school life.
Did such a bullying make you mad?
Indeed, my life was hell. In the younger years, many tears were shed and thoughts of revenge. Mid years I just dealt with it. In the last few years of HS, I stopped caring, grew a thick emotional shell, and felt better.
If so, what did you do about it?
When I was younger (6-8th grade) I had the typical anger and sadness. 9th I avoided most of it by skipping classes. 10-11th was the worst. During those years I became the monster I so hated. But worse, the effect of years of peer abuse finally recoiled and I am ashamed to say I became a tyrant many many times worse then any individual indecent. It was made more profound by the fact that during those years I was in a school with a small class. By that time I had grown my shell so to speak. There was a kid in that class that I think went out of his way to make himself a target. I was probably a bigger jerk to him then anyone ever was to me.
Looking back, do you think you did the right thing and why.
No, I am ashamed. I turned my feelings of rage and pent up aggression into a mental weapon to be used on others. What made it worse is that unlike typical bullies that will just call you names and such, I was the type that picked at the very fiber of peoples being until they came undone.
I have a theory, it goes like this: If you are picked on in your younger years you are more likely to become a monster in your later years. Bullying just creates more of the same.
For me, I became the thing I hated most. I regret it to this day.
Why do people seem to have the need to take things put on them and in turn dump it on another? Why do people bully in the first place? To make themselves feel better? To fit in? Maybe some just enjoy others pain.
After awhile I just stopped caring as I said. Nothing bothered me. Insults, rejections, etc, nothing even made me feel bad. I think that is another bad thing that can happen. We learn to give ourselves shields to protect us. The problem is such shields can have the effect of loss of emotions and a bitter outlook on life.
You wonder why the kid in the corner does not trust anyone? You wonder why the outcast becomes the monster? Well, I think most of you know the answer.
In EXTREME cases things like Columbine happen. They are rare, but they do occur. Some punk thought it would be funny to push "bobby" over the edge. Shame nobody's laughing.
People seem to get off on putting others down. Highschool is not for learning. At least not academically. It is for social experimentation. There is a hierarchy and so called food chain that evolves in schools. For some, it is a great time of friends and parties. For others, not so much.
So, I ask you all this: Next time you want to pick on somebody for being different or odd, think twice. Sure, you may get away with it. Sure, it might gain you popularity points in certain circles. It also might get you killed if you go to far.
Another thing to ask yourself is how would you feel. Silly I know, since your the one dealing it out. But switch the situation. Not so funny now huh?
Maybe this is just me ranting. Maybe I am not making any sense at this point. But coming from the position of being the weird kid, I hope it gives you a new perspective.
Nerds, Geeks, etc all are people. Those names are just labels other people give. Does being a geek make that person not have feelings?
In my mind, that person who was picked on will:
A. deal with it and suffer
B. commit suicide
C. turn into a bully themselves
D. flip out and cause a real problem
For me, it was C. I refuse to commit suicide. I refuse to sit and suffer. I am not a killer and have no want to harm others physically.
Anyways, I have since graduated HS. Looking into college and stuff. Hopefully it won't suck. My views on life have changed drastically over time. I am a different person then back then. Looking back it all seems kind of like a sick joke.
If you read all this, props to you. If not, oh well. These are just my thoughts. Take them however you like.
-- Mr. C
